Self-Injury Support Group

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GDJ1957
GDJ1957
I just got done cutting. That is not the real bad part. The thing is. I need to see more of my blood. So I want to stab myself. Not kill myself (I think) I just need to see more blood come from me for some reason. I don't feel any thing when I cut. I don't feel pain, I don't feel anger, I don't feel happy or sad. I just don'y feel. I have 2 kids that live with me and a great girl friend. That is why I say I am not trying to kill myself. Some times I think it might be to punish myself for what I don't know. I need to stop doing this. Even if I had some one here to talk to I just don't know what I would have to say besides....HELP !
deleted_user
deleted_user
ah bless you, it sounds like you are in a really bad place at the moment. do you have a some one you can trust to talk to such as a doctor.

prehaps you should even talk to your girl friend if you think that might help.

I find that after I cut myself I often think about wanting to stab myself. I find writting things down in a diary often help with the way I feel. also its a safe place to put all your feelings and is often easier to write them then to be able to talk about them.

sending you a hug but only if it feels safe for you to have one
deleted_user
deleted_user
Sorry things are so out of control right now. Have you considered Professional help? That's the main way to get help with this kind of problem. I know people say "it won't work" or "it's too hard"....make it work,no matter how hard it is.

You have 2 kids that live with you...can you imagine how they'd react to learning this? I can tell you, because I had to tell my 2 sons about 3 years ago...they don't react well, no matter what the age.

I'm a bloodletter, like you, if you didn't know this, you don't sound like it's the cutting you need to feel better, it's the letting of blood. Personally my brain sees all the "Bad" inside of me flowing out with the blood, the more blood the better. I've found ways around more cutting...

You should really talk to your girlfriend about what's going on, if you haven't already. Someone in your house needs to know what your doing and how to keep you safe if things go overboard or get too bad. This would be for your safety and your family members safety and sanity.

I sincerely hope that things calm down and you get a moment of clarity to truly think about the consequences of this and you decide to get help before things get worse.

Take care,

Kat
Warrior1997
Warrior1997
I cut myself for the same reason, honeybear. It's not worth it though. No sin is worth physical, emotional, or psychological damage. The urge to stab yourself can subside if you do something you usually enjoy doing (writing, reading, etc.)
deleted_user
deleted_user
One thing I didn't add in my previous post...getting a doll, just a plain cloth, cotton filled doll and marking or stabbing it after using a red marker to locate the spots, where you'd otherwise hurt your own body can sometimes be quite helpful...

Kat