Good God. Tonight I was more scared than I have EVER been. My very best friend, and now boyfriend Tyrone about killed himself tonight. See, hes a martial artist, and used one of the poisoned hand techniques... which basically paralyzes you and then kills you. I found him in my bathroom, just in time too. He was almost dead when I found him.
Thank GOd for antecdotes. I had to reverse the technique, and try to help him get his organs to work again. Im so in a panic right now. Im crying
and coughing, and im a mess. He almost died tonight, because of me. I almost killed him!!
Earlier today he read a journal entry of mine from a few years back when I was dating someone else. He got mad about it. We fought. He went into my bathroom with a knife of mine and locked the door. Here I thought he was going to cut or something. I kept trying to break in, his body was blocking the door. I kept trying.. Good God, I almost lost him. He is much better now, but in trying to help him, I took most of the poison. I need you guys now more than I ever have before. Please, send me hugs comments, journal comments... anything.. please. I need them.