Yeah well not exactly like that.i wish people would just leave me alone but we dont get better if people leave us alone we just get worse coz there would be no support if people just left us alone!

Bliss .. I knida know how you feel. I ahve been wanting somone to tell me that it was ok if i do the things I do. Like if they loved me they would know that its a last resourt for me. But I myself care to much about the people in mym life to not listen to them. Yet sometimes I disapoint them. But in the end I have to do whats best for me. I just try to stay focused on the next best step.

Yea sometimes when my life seems out of control. Somehow I always manage to pull some self control out of my ass and let that moment pass. I'll still resort to it, but I'm hoping I'm past the days of butchering the crap out of myself.

But it's because I care about the people in my life that I AM still fighting...I stopped fighting for me a long time ago. That's why I just wish I was on my own...then it wouldn't effect anyone, I wouldn't be hurting anyone.
I'm just so tired of it all, it's so unfair :'(

x-Bliss-x

Yea I think that too sometimes, but you know even if it was "just us" alone....we'd still be screwing over ourselves. There has to be a time again when we care enough about US that we'll stop for us. Just keep working towards that.

Bliss, you would be hurting yourself even if you stopped fighting for yourself. You are worthy to fight for. You have a reason to be on this earth, you have a talent that no one else has you have skills that no one could ever think of. You have ways of thinking that are diffrent then anyone else. You are Loved and should love yourself

yes I do, I have felt that way alot this past few days. All I have wanted to do is cut, cut, cut, I want to see the blood dripping. But I know now that it is not the answer to the problem. I need to solve the problem another way.

My pdoc gets back from holiday next week and I have an appointment with him on Monday. It's not making this easier at the moment though.
Thank you for your support it does help to know that others have felt this way. At the time it makes you feel very guilty for having these kind of thoughts.

x-Bliss-x

I know how you feel when everyone wont give you a break and you just wanna scream on loose it, but like just talk to a mate or somfin coz there always there for you like no matter what if theyre your true friend

I know what you mean. The only reason I stopped is because I cut too deep by accident and almost bled to death recently. Now I just use narcotics to deaden myself when I feel I'm about to go insane. One thing for another... but never without a crutch all-together.

a thousand times... a million... but its not gonna happen, we're not gonna be understood and for a good reason... its not healthy. all of us on here know its not, otherwise we wouldn't be here. nobody's gonna leave us alone. maybe its good, maybe its bad, take it as you will. but the reality is that we're not "normal", whatever that it, we're not healthy, but we're just human, dealing with life in the only way we know how. hopefully, someday we'll all find better ways to cope. night.

xoxo
meg-ho

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