Self-Injury Support Group

Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

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Getting worse...

Ali_lee
Ali_lee

I don’t exactly feel sad... then again I don’t exactly feel anything. My violin is currently broken so I can’t play which doesn’t make me feel any better and I just... it’s such a strong urge to just tear up my skin. I don’t exactly know why. It’s just that... every time I look at my arm I imagine myself running a blade through it... watching the blood flow down the drain... turn the water a dark red. I need some help... but I don’t want to just end up in another facility where they think they’re helping big they’re just making it worse. I just... I want some friends to help my through this... but I don’t have any... not anymore.

Alice0
Alice0
Yeah hospitals are usually a waste of time. Ones I've been in were abusive. Maybe you can see a therapist outpatient?
Ali_lee
Ali_lee
Yeah. It’s sort of sad yet funny how most of the time I spent there I got worse and how me and a girl talked about how we wouldn’t stop... we just wouldn’t get caught next time. Also like where..? I don’t exactly hear about many therapist outpatients...
BakerChica
BakerChica
I know how isolating it is to self-harm, and I don’t know much about hospitals specially for self harm as the only ones I have been to are for EDs but also work on self harm, but if you ever need anyone to be there like a friend as someone who understands, I am always here, and that goes for anyone in this chat!
Ali_lee
Ali_lee
Thank you both...
rollercoaster04
rollercoaster04
Here if you wanna talk. I know some of what your going through due to my own experience.
cwillis495
cwillis495
Hey- I know it's hard to find a therapist you can trust not to try to send you to hospital, but they exist. I found that by browsing therapists online for a while, reading what they said about how they worked I got a sense of who was safe, and then I called to talk before meeting. It can feel really good to have that person in your corner affirming that you're not crazy and that this is a ways you've had to learn to cope, and that it can get better too.