dont say that, i feel the exact same way but you`ll get thru it. there so manyppl on here that care ! xxx

Don't say that.. Your life will change.. and things will get better. Trust me! Life has it's ups and downs.

you've gotta try not to think like this, i know it's not easy cos i feel the same, you just gotta look at positives things, you might not see any straight away, but there is always something positive. x

Yeah, I know how that goes F bomb and everything. But remember all the other times it's gotten better. Don't forget that we're here for you!

Just was wondering how things are going?

not good at all

I am sorry about that, wish I knew what to say. I know the reason I keep hanging on is that I know I will wind up in a place worse than this world if I do something.

I wish I could help or give you some words of advice other than hang on for the happy moments that should come.

One of the things I talk with my therapist is that when I feel bad, I have to talk to myslef that is going to pass, because it usually does.

Well you seem to have pretty decent spelling skills and can use the internet well enough, so there are two things that you've done right... not trying to make light of your situation but seriously, I know people in their 60s who are amazed at anyone with any skill in using the 'net.

Drinking or taking drugs could land you in jail or, since you are a minor, in a juvenile detention facility... I've worked in one of those and believe me, you don't wanna be there. Worse, you could die. Possibly at this point you may be thinking "that would be a blessing," but that's the depression talking. In short, if you were happy you wouldn't want to die.

I keep going back to this but really, it's the truth... with age comes wisdom and a shift in your perspective on things. I felt the exact same way you're feeling right now when I was your age. "I'm a fk-up, I'm ugly, I'm stupid," etc... I've been there. As you grow older you grow out of that. It's hard to really take control of a lot of things when you're a teenager, I know... livin' under your parents' roof/ rules... but you do have something to look forward to, getting the chance to shape your own destiny. All I can say is, you really haven't even begun living yet. I mean, you're 14? I've been out of high school longer than that. There's a lot of cool people and cool shit in this world that you have yet to experience. In actuality, your brain hasn't even finished developing yet. For real. You may think that it's hopeless, that you're always going to feel this way for the rest of your life, but you won't. Again, you are still verrrrry young. I used to feel that way too, but I'm living proof that you don't have to be miserable for the rest of your life. It's not always going to suck. Part of that involves taking responsibility for your own happiness, too... deciding that you are going to take steps to find happiness. The world doesn't owe you that, and it's not gonna come to you on a silver platter. Everyone has fked up shit goin' on in their life. Surviving means learning how to rise above it. Sorry I'm not trying to sound harsh but that's just how I've learned to look at life. And it's made me a much happier, well-adjusted person.