i know this sounds obvious but don't beat yourself up for one slip. gather up the strength you have built up over the years and try to push forward. i know for me too it's one thing or another but i just try not to dwell or focus or beat myself up over it. the more you blame yourself, the more you harm yourself. blame it on the dark forces that test you and tease you. throw rocks at them!

i know the feeling...but for me i didnt make it anywhere near four years.
as zombie said, try and not beat yourself up about it. try and tell yourself that you made it to four years once, you can sure as hell do it again.

do you have a therapist or counsellor you could talk to about the eating disorder..? they might be able to give you some coping mechanisms or something.

im here to talk if you so wish :)

I know how u feel i just got out of IP for my ED and in OP and now i had a slip there and now i'm going back to cutting it sucks.

Dont b hard on yourself u have gone 4 year i'm so proud of u. We all have slips.

Hang in there

Thank you guys... you've no idea how much this means to me.

My counselor told me I would never get better or stop until I found a better coping skill and actually get better at that coping skill, until it works better for me than cutting. So, I"m working on that... tougher than most think.