i am in the same situation that you are pretty much! my boyfriend told me he would break up with me if i started cutting again but things are really bad right now and that is the only thing i know that makes me feel better. but i am not going to give i and you shouldn't either! try getting like a rubber band or a hair tie and every time you get the urge to cut just snap it on ur wrist. it stings and its some what satisfying if you do it right and it doesnt leave the scars so you should try it. I hope this helps!

I am so in the same situation that you are!! I am here if you need someone to talk to...

u kinda have to get to a point of no return, rock bottom persay when self harm is no longer an option. 4 me it came down to me either coping or spending my life in a state mental hospital. u dont want that do you? inbox me when u really wanna stop and ill help u.

@ Fearless I have been trying. I have been pretty good for the last 2 years. And am going on almost a year with no cutting. However, for some reason lately, it has been creeping back in to my mind, and I want to give in. This has been happening the last month or so. I haven't given in yet. And No I don't want to be in a hospital.

then what is your plan. u got a relapse prevention plan?

What do you mean, relapse prevention plan? This is the first time I have heard of this.

Ive been struggling not to cut for the past month and I really dont know what to do. I have not cut in 30 months, but I still find myself thinking about it. I feel like Im starting to crack.

@ Wandinggirl there seems to be a lot of people who thing that they are over cutting, and when you least expect it BAM! it is trying to rear it's ugly head again.

I try to remind myself of all the negatives that come with the cutting and how those who know about it would feel if they found out. My bf even threatened that for every cut I make he would make one on himself. He has actually cut himself in front of me to show me how useless a habit it is.

I try to keep those images so i stay away. They don't always work, as indicated by the original post. Just because I have the urges doesn't mean I have given in or have to give in.

Having urges and not giving in is bigger proof of your strength then just not wanting to cut in my book.

The day I stop thinking about how long its been since I last cut will be a great day. But it is always in my head. Not cutting is like fighting a war against msyelf.

I dont think you are odd for feeling this way. Sometimes you need to look harder for what works for you. Using coping skills in addition to working it out with a counselor or something.

Unfortunately, sometimes you just gotta take the slight aid another coping skill can give you and stick it out.

I've tried the rubber bands and the journaling and all that and it got me NOWHERE. It turns out I had been cutting for so long that I used it for several different emotions and I had to get different coping methods for the different emotions. For the cutting from anger I either watch gore montages on youtube or listen to cannibal corpse. For cutting from anxiety I go watch my betta fish. For cutting from utter misery....well, I'm still working on that. The point is everyone has different reasons for cutting and what works for someone isn't going to work for you. The only "appropriate" coping methods are the ones that work for you. And like you said, NOT cutting when you want to shows more strength than having no urges. When my life got better after the Bad TIme, I stopped cutting. I thought I was all better. Three years later there came hardship and with it came more scars. Turns out I had never stopped cutting, the need to had just gone away.

@Twlightstar, you are right and that is what I have been doing. I haven't given in yet. I have almost hit a year, and still going. Perhaps not strong, but going.

@Metalhead777, That is how I feel right now. I thought I was done with all this sh@#. I thought I was better. But like you I have been on this track for a long time. I started when i was 13 by digging my nails in to my palms and arms and pulling on my hair. It just slowly evolved from there. I don't even remember how I became a full fledged cutter or where I go my first blade from. It is just so irritating. I feel like this emo crap should have left with puberty. I am sick of playing these little kid games. I just don't know what to do anymore. I am still not cutting, but I don't know how long it will last.