Self-Injury Support Group

Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

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Jennheimrich 12/18/2007

Tonight my cutting cravings kicked in. I kept staring at any and every knife. I couldnt help it. God it was horrible. I was fighting it though doing my very best.... and then my bf asked me to uhm... "play" well during our "play" I asked him to scratch along my back as hard as he could....

Has scratching become my alternative to cutting?!?!?!

Im scared about it. I really am. Cause I dont know when to stop, whats a real itch, and whats addiction..

deleted_user 12/18/2007

i no it is ok

Jennheimrich 12/18/2007

is scratching my substitute now?

deleted_user 12/18/2007

depends how much you scrath. if it was just this one off thing then probably not. but if more than that then yes maybe you think that because it's not cutting it's not SI or something like that

deleted_user 12/18/2007

I use scratching to cure the urge - I figure it's better than cutting - but usually I just can't stop - I have eczema - so it's itchy anyway so I use it as a cover - but I just scratch til I bleed and bleed and bleed - but Jenn - scratching IS a lot safer than knives - so maybe you shouldn't worry and think of it as slowly weaning yourself off of our addiction - cutting - if that makes sense

Jennheimrich 12/18/2007

Well I was all scratched up to the point I bled, and there were over 50 scratches all over my back. It was... beautiful agony.

deleted_user 12/19/2007

I also scracth alot if there isnt a sharp object with me. Most of the scars on my arms and legs are from scratching so hard that it started to bleed. I usually do this in my therapist office when he isnt looking.

I understand what you saying about it being an alternative to cutting. For myself it is, I guess it depends on how much you scratch and if you have the same relief you do with cutting.

Anyways hang in there. Your stronger than you think.

Jennheimrich 12/19/2007

oh God. Because I cant cut, I found something else?

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