i have bipolar also and have been manic many times. For me mania is the most destructive force I have ever known. I start out with energy and feeling good and then I do and say the most bizarre things. Please let your pdoc know about this and make sure you don't miss too much sleep. Stay in touch and if things get out of hand don't hesitate to go to the hospital until you come down a bit. I am praying for you and hoping that you don't have any bad situations. You can come and clean my house!

I took a break for awhile now I am back at it again I am doing laundry washing spring things. I know why I am manic because I went off of my one med latuda because it was causing my blood sugars to go way to high. My pdoc wanted to see how I do without that one med all antiphycotics cause blood sugars to rise so she is holding off. I hate feeling manic to because the high then the big crash........ I gt a lot done though when I am on the high but I pay for it later when I crash. I usually crash hard when I do so I am not looking forward to that. I am rambling on now so I will go. thanks for listening.......

Can you reach your pdoc to let her know you are having this reaction? Did she give you any plan for if this happened? (she should have) You can get through this. Avoid caffeine and make sure you get at least a little sleep tonight, even if it is hard. I hope you don't go too high and I sure hope your return to earth isn't too painful. Thanks for keeping us posted. Hugs.

got 1 hour sleep last night nodded off for an hour watching a movie but woke up raring to go again more energized than ever wahoooooooo. NO I cant reach my doc until mon and no she did give me a plan if this happened what to do. I feel so good right now but I know it is not going to last I hate the coming down part.that is the worst. Thanks Steve for replying to my messages and for caring:)

I am glad you at least got one hour of sleep! The main thing for now is MAKE NO MAJOR DECISIONS. Now is not the time to sign up for the army or to buy a car or anything else crazy. Stay close to home and clean. You need to complain tomorrow to your pdoc that she didn't have a plan in place to keep you sane. That disturbs me. I will be busy today but I will check in on you and I am hoping you will be ok. Hang in there and don't dwell on the inevitable crash. I wish this happiness would last always for you my friend. Ah, the perils of bipolar!

oh my aching back......... I did some yard work today and I am paying for it now as I am hurting .thats what I get for being manic owell life goes on........

We run into problems when the mind wants to drive places the body can't reach. I have more tendency to injury than I did 30 years ago or even 5 years ago. I hope your back gets better soon. It occurred to me that this interchange while you have been manic has added to my good memories of getting to know you. We are sick--not bad. There is a big difference. Please, please try and get some sleep tonight. That is job#1 for keeping you on the planet and in a good space. What would it be like for us to somehow harness the energy of an early manic break and use it in our lives? I have done some amazing things when flying high in mania. I have done many things I deeply regret. But in the end, aside from taking good care to not make my illness worse, I am sick---not bad. I wouldn't call you bad you wouldn't say that of me, but it is what we ourselves have believed to be true in our deepest hearts. You are not bad for having a mood disorder my friend. Please get some rest.

Thanks Steve for your kind words.

I had a meltdown before. I felt the anxiety getting bad and I mean bad so I took a pill but before it took effect I lost it. I cant take this anymore this up and down nonsense why do I have to have a mental illness??? I just don't understand this anymore. I am dealing with a lot right now other than being manic. I will tell you what I am going through. I am perimenapause which is making my hormones out of wack on top of being manic on top of the anxiety. I am also trying to process all of my work that I am doing in theropy for my sexual abuse. I don't think I can handle anymore. I am at my wits end here. I try to be positive but sometimes it don't work. I am trying so hard but sometimes it just gets to be to much and I lose it. I need sleep to 1 hour of sleep in 2 days is not going to cut it.ok thanks for reading I don't know if ill sleep tonight but I am going to try.

I don't know all the reasons why we have mental illnesses but there is a lot of evidence to suggest that it is caused by the traumas we have been through. Somehow trauma changes the structure and working of the brain. I know that may not be much consolation for you. It is hard to be positive when you are facing so much and my heart goes out to you. I am proud of you for working hard to find healing as you have been and I encourage you to continue on and get better in every way, no matter how hard it is. Did you sleep last night? I sure hope so. Just know you are not alone in your struggles and I am pulling for you and praying for you. You are not to blame for your illness!

I got maybe 2 hours sleep last night mind was racing a lot. I know I have heard that about trauma causing mental illness to so its ok. I have heard it before somewhere. I still feel manic today not as bad but still feel the energy surge. Maybe it will end soon I hope usually only last 2 or 3 days or so. Thanks for you kind words Steve. ((((((((hugs))))))) to you and hope your doing well to..

I hope things calm down for your brain today. It will take you a while to catch up on sleep and recover from this episode. Be thankful that your manic times are so short. Mine can continue for weeks or months with many bad consequences. Find anything you can to be thankful for today and avoid situations that are upsetting as your fuse may be a bit short after so little sleep. Thanks for keeping me posted and know you are not alone. Call your pdoc first thing!

I was thinking earlier about something. I feel very unloved by my family. I always feel like I am the outcast kind of. I have to fight for everything I want or need unlike some of my other family members they get what ever they want. I have always felt like this for a very long time now.just a thought anyway.

I am the black sheep of my family and whenever I have a manic episode my family is very distant (I can understand why). It is a sad feeling to not be a part of the family like you wish you were. I have found comfort in finding good friends to support and encourage me. I hope you sleep tonight. Did you call the pdoc?

yes I called my pdoc she never called back yet.i hope I sleep tonight to I soooooo need sleep. I am so wide awake right now////

ok only 2 hours sleep last night and still manic today I can kind of feel a little bit of coming down I hope maybe I don't know yet ill see how I feel later. so far 4 days. If this is any indication of the end coming I am not looking forward to the coming down part. ok hope all is well with everyone bye for now oh theropy day today:(