Schizophrenia Support Group
Schizophrenia is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by impairments in the perception of reality and by significant social dysfunction. Untreated schizophrenia is typically characterized by demonstrating disorganized thinking and experiencing delusions or auditory hallucinations.
It seems everything is falling apart in my life. My marriage, my schooling, my health. It just seems to be getting worse and worse. I dont think im going to be able to cope with everything. Im living with my mother until I can get a place to stay and divorce my Husband. My 2 yr old son is stuck in the middle of things and I just want to break down and cry every time I see him. I took a leave of absence from school so I could deal with the move and I had tons of Dr appts. to go to. I had an abnormal pap and the Dr believes its precancerus. I have to go next week for a procedure called colposcopy? I have to wait and see how that turns out. Keep in mind im 22, I have to have yearly mammograms due to tumors I get in my breasts. I have one coming up the 23rd of this month, my Dr found some rather large lumps and said i needed to have one done just in case. Im freaking out about that. I have to go the 30th of this month to see a Psychiatrist. I went the 12th for an intake appointment, but I didnt need to be hospitalized, so they just told me to come back. On top of everything, I have a slight worry that I might be pregnant. And thats the last thing I need or that my Husband wants. With everything between us and my health, I couldnt possibly handle another child! As im writing this im crying, and it feels like my heart is breaking, and I dont know what to do...
do you ever sing? i have found that it helps me, and i have read that music therapy is one way to treat schizophrenia. you might try having singalongs with your child. singing with my son (he is 1 and a half) is what gets me through sometimes. i know it sounds silly, but that is the point. it is good to let loose and focus on what is truly important in life; love, laughter, and truth. i know that will not solve all of intense issues facing you, but maybe you meet them with a smile on your lips.
hope and strength to you, and always, luck.
But the truth is the kids are not going to be traumatized by the complications of the divorce procedures, all the emotional hang ups between you and your ex husband, the fact that everyone will judge you because your marriage failed and that makes you a failure and all the other 'grown up' bullshite we act out and take so seriously.
All of that is just the silly games grown ups play with each other just like our kids do but ours have consequences.
Children don't understand all the adult complications- they just react to how You are with them when you're with them at that moment.
So as far as your son is concerned just be normal with him. think about how you are around him. don't sob and and fight with your ex or play games that he will never understand around him because that will traumatize him. Your Son will be fine.
The lumps on breast and where ever else are nothing. If you are young and healthy then there is nothing to worry about. If you aren't young and healthy then I'd suggest a Raw foods diet for a month and take more walks and drink more water. Learn to breathe from your diaphragm and do it consciously every day for 5 mins a day and you will live to a hundred.
Hope this helps.
Love from Archi x
Best of luck and please keep us posted on your progress. If you need any support I and many others on Daily Strength are more than happy to give you our full attention! :)
Kind regards,
Archi