Just thought I'd reach out. I was recently told I'm schizophrenic. I was told I was schizo affective about 20 years ago. I'm also on anti psychotics and anti depressants. From the late 80's to the late 90's I was in and out of psych hospital. These days, I'm fairly stable and work part time. It's a job with very little to do, which is why i can handle it.
anyway, it came as a shock when told i'm shchizophrenic - but it's not news! I've known I have major mental illness for a long time. The thing is, I keep dismissing it in my mind, or denying it. That's why, every now and then, I'll think 'ohmygod - I'm mentally ill!' I just wondered if anyone else here 'forgets' their illness.
The trouble with forgetting is that I give myself a hard time, and expect too much of myself.
with this recent diagnosis, it's a relief because it makes me feel blameless - there's been all sorts of difficulties in my life. Maybe it's because I'm ill.
These days, I'm not too bad, but was pretty paranoid recently - so upped the medication to what it's supposed to be.(I'd reduced it because of side effects.) I just want to take what I need to take, and be well!