Rheumatoid Arthritis Support Group
Rheumatoid arthritis is a chronic, inflammatory, multisystem, autoimmune disorder. It is a disabling and painful condition which can lead to substantial loss of mobility due to pain and joint destruction. The disease is also systemic in that it often also affects many extra-articular tissues throughout the body including the skin, blood vessels, heart, lungs, and...
I thus suggest you inform your doctor that it is having this side effect for you and either go off it and try another biologic, or get some anti-anxiety, anti-depression medication.
If your moods go up and down from one day to the next, odds are you may not need medication.....but rather the tools to learn how to pull yourself up and out of that blue box.
I also want to tell you that with the right treatment, you could get your life back. True, you may not be able to run 5 mile marathons, but you don't have to be sitting on the sidelines either.
I was in my early 40's when I was diagnosed. [I'm in my last 60's now]. Sailing is my passion and for years I couldn't do it. Then I got on Humira 5 years ago and it was a game changer. I still sail, though frankly, I don't have the muscle strength to do a decent job of crewing. Still, I love the ocean, the wind......and it's no longer about racing. So I guess your passions change a little....they're tweaked to fit your abilities. And that's not all that bad.
Make sure you have a great rheumatologist, find a treatment that works, accept that this is a lifelong disease but that you can have a good life.
The bottom line is that you can lay down and let it consume you.....or not.
On that note: friends may not be understanding why you look normal but can't run the marathon. Too bad. Let them deal with it. True friends never leave.
Juls
When I finally got on a biologic, much too late, we had to answer this 30 page questionnaire every 6 months to see if our "quality of life" had improved on the biologic. There was about 7 pages on "mood." I was terrified if I answered I was still depressed, they would take me off the biologic, which was working. I had just been so depressed for so long, I needed a long time to recover.
So when the depression did finally lift, for numerous reasons (I did turn back to God, and enrolled in Seminary - I am now a pastor!) I got my nerve up and asked the assessing RA nurse why there were so many questions on mood and depression.
She said that 95% of people diagnosed with a chronic illness get depressed, especially if the disease is not under control! OH! So that's what it was!
So yes, the disease will get you down in more ways than one. I also experienced severe anxiety for 2 years, right in the initial years on mthx. I have never had that before or after. And I believe, like in my case with lying on that form that I wasn't depressed, that perhaps depression, anxiety and the like are under reported as side effects in studies. And it may not take much to tip someone already on the verge of depression to fall into a black pit, if a drug has even a tiny percentage chance of causing mental illness symptoms.
So do seek professional help. But be very careful they do not over medicate you. I was on 5 different psych meds, with terrible side effects and and I was a zombie. My psychiatrist even apologized in later years when I got off all the meds, and didn't need them. But an ear to bend, and maybe a sleep med, or perhaps something to calm you down might be in order.
And do not worry about the stigma of being classified as mentally ill. This is something that we all need to learn about and then work together to erase. Just because RA has knocked you flat, and you need some help, doesn't mean you are a crazy person, just that you could not cope. Like most of us!