Thanks Sally! I will try and focus on other things but it's not easy when I only work Tuesday and Thursday now. I had no illness, accidents, disease and while he could have writtnen "no known events or accidents" it really doesn't matter because maybe from his viepoint there were none or he doesn't believe there are any for RA in the first place. Personally, I don't think there are. I once that it occured because I was working hard outside but I was already feeling tired and lethargic prior to starting that project so I think it was already with me. Some people get auto immunue diseases but no one is even sure why that happens. Maybe it's PCBs in the environment but that's just speulation as well?
Thanks!

Maybe he should have written in "bad genes" for precipitating events? My sister had a huge court case after a car accident, in which she felt had caused MS. In the end, after 6 years, she got almost nothing. Because there is absolutely no medical causality between car accidents and MS, or anything else. And she was a lawyer and should have known better!

I agree with Sally, you are stressing way to much about this. Have you talked to your family doctor about an anti-depressant and maybe an anti-anxiety to get you through this?

For me, trusting God has gotten me through a lot of RA anxiety, including now, after 10 months of med failures. You can pm me if you want to know more.

Exactly what Sally said.

I would be very surprised if you were denied, based on what you have shared with us. Try to get your mind off of this - delve into something that requires your full attention. Sometimes good things happen when you are busy thinking about something else. Sort of like a watched pot never boils.

I would think it is definitely to your advantage that he listed no precipitating events.

Keep us posted.
Linda

Thanks everyone! I'll try and relax!

I agree with the posts, it is s disease of itself. We have individual factors that can bring on flares and in my opinion if a cause was written in then the reviewers would say just avoid such and such and you'll be fine. I admit can overthink things, I'm working on it, and the fatigue and cognitive difficulties the disease brought on forced me to let go of some details like this and let people do their jobs. I check up on things but they fill this stuff out all the time.
This is a big deal for you as it is for me since it is our ability to support ourselves. One technique I use to disconnect and give my brain a break is binge watching series or movies.

go have a beer.

out on that lawn you love

depot

You guys are right! I guess I'm more anxious now than ever for 2 reasons: 1) I couldn't do this job anymore if I wanted to. Seriously. Not that it matters for disability but I felt I would benefit from using a cane for the first time in my life. I bring that up only too illustrate how poorly I'm doing at the moment and how much pain my legs are in. When in in that kind of pain my brain usually shuts down due to fatigue.
2) My bosses know that my disability is or will impair my ability to do my job and it is their legitimate role to push me in this direction. I would hope my retirement board takes that into consideration as my superintendent's office did submit a letter stating why I could no longer do my job any longer.
I'll try and relax. I just want it to be over with!

You'll know in two weeks, buddy. In the meantime, take Depot's suggestion, and don't forget to b-r-e-a-t-h-e.