No love you are not losing your mind.....you are just feeling right now, and sometimes feeling sucks.....let it come, and then let it go, give yourself permission to feel, and feel sad for what you've been through, have empathy for yourself, give yourself time.......time to pick up the pieces the have been scattered......breathe deep, be patient, and know we all are here for you......sending a hug, A

Hello insecure u r not loosing your mind, i think a fair few people will understand what you are talking about. Below is an excert from The Rape Crisis Line England explaining what you have just described. I hope you find it reasuring and useful. REMEMBER you are NOT loosing you mind and you are NOT alone, good luck and take care

Flashbacks

A flashback is a sudden memory of abuse that is so strong it actually seems that it's hap-
pening now. Something usually triggers the flashback and it's often touch or sex. Again you
can get pictures in your head. But they seem much more real. You may experience the actu-
al sounds, smells, tastes, emotions that you did at the time of the rape. You may feel terri-
fied, shocked, numb, in a rage or filled with disgust depending what you felt then. You may
get the same physical sensations in your body, ie body memories. These sensations are
sometimes in your genitals or rectum.

It all seems so real it's hard to keep track of what's actually happening in the real world.
You may feel completely out of control.
Flashbacks are very frightening. But you can get through them and get some control.
Some women have later described them as a way of retrieving useful information about
what actually happened at the time.
Consider advice under 'Self-help for Panic and Sudden Distress' and the additional
advice on coping with sudden memories.