Rape Support Group
If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
I used to wish I would get raped because then i could tell people i wasnt a virgin but it wasnt my fault and i wouldnt get blamed. It sickens me that now they Ive been raped that I used to think that. Does anyone else have some kind words or advice, i feel like i can only talk about this here because i am so ashamed of this.
Sometimes we tell ourselves things to build up a situation, prepare for it....so if it happens, we think it won't be so bad....we try to protect ourselves not ever knowing what will actually happen one day.
I did this too...I told myself, I'd always be ok if I told ppl where I was going, brought a friend, didnt hang out with strangers, etc. But I knew that I wasn't tellig myself the whole truth even though I believed myself.
We tell ourselves things all the time. Like you can do it or, youre sick but you have to go to school/work today so tough it out, etc. It's the same principal. We tell ourselves things to try to protect ourselves and we do the best we can and that's perfectly okay!
Don't feel bad about trying to prepare yourself for all the awful ppl in the world......we cant control others, only try to change ourselves and heal in time. And we do get there...in time.
((Sending you a hug))