There's a myth out there that women never force men into such things. At the age of 17, 5 women forced themselves on me and I couldn't escape, but my friend whom just happened to be walking by took me seriously when I shouted to him for help, and he yanked me off the ground. See, I am a short, young-looking guy. Haven't aged since I was 13. Women both younger and older than I have tried this on me. I could have technically gotten away, as I've always been attacked by men, and more than just 5 at once, but imagine the police's interpretation? I'd have been jailed for using extreme force on 5 women, and going so far as to say they were trying to do something to me. I know a lot of men whom have actually been raped by a female, but were afraid to admit it. Seeing as I was a strong, prideful teen then, I felt I'd never live it down, hate myself, feel weak, and I also want to be a virgin if I marry. Nowadays, I don't care about being super proud now at almost 29 years old, though I still definitely prefer remaining a virgin. Those guys I spoke to and know, they have lost much of what makes them feel strong as a man. I know that happens to women, I'm not comparing the two. I'm just saying that when guys are beaten iin almost anything, they feel their ego crushed. Many have taken their lives over it. I don't try to maintain an ego now. I went for years afraid of women, expecting one to molest me, and not being able to shove them away without being called out for abuse, or even being told to do something or being accused of what they themselves were doing. Now that I can't really walk much anymore, I don't go places where there are women, so I was able to get over that fear.

I want to let you know I am here for anyone that needs a friend. I'm not some creep. In fact, honest to God, I lost my sex drive years ago because a ridiculous medication from doctors messed up my head, hormones, and even the desire to eat. Honestly, I never feel hunger, ever. Same for thirst. Same... for sleep. They can't seem to fix what they did to me, but they are trying. Sso anyway, point is I have nothing to gain from helping you. I just feel like everyone needs someone to support then, man or woman, when they have something big they have not only dealt with, but CONTINUE to deal with! I got past my fear of women a few years ago. It took me from the time it happened at 17 to about the age of 25. I'm almost 29 now, and have actually spent many years online, helping support those who need emotional help, friends, and such. I did this about 7 years ago on this actual site, too, but it has been a while since I forgot my info, couldn't type easily, and so on. I can type now, so talk about anything if you like. Seriously, anything. I don't mind. I also am bedridden and have a random sleep schedule, so don't fear you are taking up my time. I have plenty of time to give. Though I spent a lot of time researching many subjects and uncovering lies, I also won't ignore anyone who speaks to me.

I hope and pray I can help at least some of you out! I don't want to live just to help myself.