I couldn't go to work. I can't face my clients and put on the caring happy persona people expect when they see me.

How do I even begin to answer their questions. How are you? What's been happening? Etc.

Then leading to conversations where they confide in me telling me about their problems and Insecurities expecting reassurance and guidance. How call I provide this when I'm struggling to do that for myself?

It's been less than 3 weeks since I was raped by my cousin and I'm still struggling to life.

I can't think straight and logically, I can't eat, I struggle to sleep and when I do it's nightmares. I've already struggled and relapsed with anxiety since I was 8 years old and this has been a very big setback in my progress and recovery. I'm a mother of a seven year old daughter, a wife, a student, a friend, a business owner, a friend, a diabetic and in between all that I am a victim still trying to balance everything. But the weight of what happened is so heavy it makes everything seem so tedious, difficult and tiresome.

Please tell me I'm not in this alone, that someone understands what it feels like to be living a life after surviving rape.