Hey...I'm the same way and it makes me hate myself so much. I think it's pretty normal though, it doesn't mean you're sick, just hurt. There was a post about this kind of thing earlier in the sexual abuse group:

http://dailystrength.org/c/Sexual-Abuse/forum/2611565-arousal-wrong-things

Message me if you ever want to, I can definitely relate.

I do not think that this is sick, I think it is your way of coping. I think a big part of it is that you are not denying the fact that it had happened to you, but you were forced into a sexual act while in a situation.. sometimes even though we don't want to our bodies are stimulated by this actions and it makes us feel good. I wouldn't say it is abnormal or sick.

I agree with ocotber...
I don't think it is sick at all...your body is having a normal reaction. It is trying its best to heal. Trying super hard not to get hurt anymore.

Hang in there and don't beat yourself up.

totally normal so no your not sick or twisted. dont hate yourself hun

I am the same way coinsidering all of my first sexual experiences were forced it is the only thing I have to go upon and that is how my brain and body think how sex is supposed to be. So, I too find myself turned on by rape scenes and I feel horrible about it

thanks guys.

That's not sick. From what I've learned, that's pretty normal. We all react differently with our rape and abuse. You're in my prayers, friend. Lots of love.

Totally normal.