i just turned 15 last month and my two best friends has been dating for about 6 months and i was more close with the guy and the girl and they just broke up and both came to me for support. So 4 days ago i went to the guys house, he has a beach front house and we were gonna go swim. we are really close and we hnag alone all the time. but instead of the beach he wnted to watch a movie and hes my best friend so there was niothing wrong with that to me. he immdietly started trying to kiss me and i kept telling him to stop but he didnt. He plays football and lax and hes really strong so he help me down andi couldnt move. he didnt have sex with me so he didnt rape me but he made me dolike oral stuff so i dont know what that is rly classified as and its not as bad as everyone elses story's. i havent really been able to sleep and its all i think about and i dont want to be with my frends because im not acting myslef and i just want to be in someones company but do nothing if that makes sence. im just struggling and im not sure what to do.