I have been raped 8 times in the past 4 years, 6 of the times have happened within the past 3 months, and the last attack just a week and a half ago. Each time they get worse, more violent and de-grading. The last attack however was the one that affected me the most. Ever since the first attack I have become depressed, not able to sleep well, bulimic, scared, sometimes thoughts of suicide. I thought I could never feel worse until just this last attack. Suddenly its like everything I had to keep me going is just gone. I basically run off pills to make it through my days. I take sleep aids before bed, get up in the middle of the night to take more since they dont seem to work long, in the morning and throughout the day I take pain relievers and caffeine pills, and a couple others just to make it through. Problem is they dont seem to work anymore. I emtionally and physically cant deal with it. I'm losing whatever I'm fighting and I can't stop it. I cant sleep, I cant stop thinking about him or what happened, Im on egde all the time. I constantly feel like I'm losing my mind. I'm not sure what to do anymore. I cant even say rape out loud or talk about what happened to anyone in person. What can I do?