where do i begin? ever since it clicked for me months later after the rape my mom has not been suportive at all. i have learned to cope and manage on my own which sucks alot i cant even ask question related to sex( he was my first ) somtimes i remeber little details i used to try to tell her but she wont even let me tak now. so i dont brother anymore. it has really drive a huge wedge between us. theres just some much i want to tell her every feeling i have but when i do she ll say something like why do you feel that way. or why did you tell him for ( that was her reaction when i told her i told the guy im kinda seeing we have knon each other since 5th grade. i cant vent to her. she told me the other day she honestly never looked at it as if i was raped usually your attacked when your raped wtf??really umm i said no stop and i even begged him to stop but i guess that means i wanted it though huh? im sorry i really need to vent. ya know. it pisse me off alot. i had this dream other nite. where everything is foggy but his face is prefectly there what the hell. go away . get out of my peaceful sleep u bastard. in good time though right cant bee soo enough. im sorry i need to vent.