hi my name is Kavetra I live in Atlanta and I am addicted to amphetamines I have been on them for 5 years. I started them because I heard that they was a really quick way to loose wieght. When i was over weight I was severely depressed, and the amphetamines allowed me to loose the weight and the depression. That is what my greatest fear is that pain and depression coming back. When I was 16 the depression was so bad that I took 95 tylenols. I felt that same depression returning 5 years ago when I was severly 100 pounds over weight. Now I am not able to stop the amphetamines. I have tried quitting before but the withdrawls was to severe for me to handle. I'm going to try to quit again tomorrow, by reducing my dosage to 1/2 instead of just quitting cold turkey. I am really scared, I'm scared of th weight coming back and the depression coming back, but I cant keep taking the amphetamines because i have developed constant heart palpitations and I'm beginning to loose my vision. Im scared because i dont have any family support, except for my ex and he is recovering from crack cocaine addiction. Pray for me if there is anyone here who beleives in Prayer to God. The longest i have ever been clean is 1 week. I feel like I am stuck at two roads, and neither is path that I'm anxious to take, I fear the depression as much as I fear the addiction. I was thinking about taking some type of antidepressant but I think they may cause seizures if taken with the Amphet. All I know is I gotta do something I cant keep going on like this
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