Long story short I have spent the last 3 years in constant pain, it effected every area of my life, I lost my job, I lost my husband, and I took every ounce of energy to raise my two kids alone, and support them. By finding any job possible that let me work from home. I finally last week was diagnosed with fibromyalgia, factor 5 Leiden (clotting disorder) and no inferior vena cava (aka blood builds up in the lower half of my body and really hurts) but I started taking Lyrica and tramadol, and drastically my symptoms improved.
The problem that is that in those 3 years I have been on a constant dose of Percocet almost every two hours, prescription and "borrowing" them from friends.... Now Im tapering off with help from my doctor. But they have become a part of my life. More than the addiction that I know I have, it's become a habit. When I wake up, when I cook lunch, before dinner, before bed, when Im out with friends, when Im taking a long car trip.... you get the idea.... I have no idea how Im going to do this I know it's time Im only 29 and I know I need to do it for my kids because I don't need narcotics anymore. I keep telling myself that as I split in half a 30mg Percocet.
I honestly dont know a life without Percocet, every dose possible. I just dont know how to help the habit of taking the pills. I know I can beat the physical aspect, but the emotional habit part. Thats where Im scared.