This isn't an easy situation whatsoever but there are ways to lessen the cravings and cope with them while they are this strong. Its very important to remember these cravings do not last at this strength forever. They lessen with time. I don't know where you are at it with sobriety and recovery but have u thought about going to a rehab and getting a sponsor? It's impossible to fight this alone, nor should you have to fight this alone.

Agree with JMO. Sounds like you need alot of support. I don't think you can get enough here.

Almost impossible to do it alone. If you went to your local ER right now, that would be the best place to start to get into treatment. They cannot deny treatment based on inability to pay! It is against the law!

We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers. Please keep us posted.

God Bless!

I am have been on and off again for years now as far as sobriety this time it is about a month. I stopped counting it was making things to real for me and I wasn't ready to deal. I am a single mom of 2 young kids who have no where to go if I leave except with foster care. I found 2 rehabs that have family housing for people like me but they don't take my insurance so at this point its really trying to figure out if leaving my kids would be good or bad. I honestly think I would sink harder without them. they keep me strong these days. my friend is a recovering addict and is a great support for me. I can always run to her for the strength but sometimes its just not enough.

oh and im feeling a bit better today. things don't seem so hard right now.

One thing we addicts tend to do is minimize the seriousness of our problems. I hope you are not falling into this trap because the kids need a sober mom!

You can google NA meetings in your area. They are great support! They will work with you, pray for you, and give you any assistance you may need to help you out. You just need to go to one of their meetings and ask.

You may not have to leave your kids to go into treatment. Most hospitals have outpatient programs covered by insurances who prefer them to inpatient programs because they are less costly.

I was in a 3 week iop (Intensive Outpatient Program) called "Serene Program" which taught us coping skills! It helped me deal with some ptsd I was having as a result of my dad's death. Ptsd is a huge trigger and triggers are emotional problems from situations that force us to self medicate to numb the pain from them.

You would benefit greatly by attending an iop at your local hospital. It may just take a phone call to the substtance abuse dept and/or a referal from your doctor.

Good luck on your road to recovery and please keep us posted. We care!

God Bless!

Yes im glad you mentioned PTSD. I def think that's a big thing for me. I had an alcoholic drug addict father growing up who could become abusive. I decided to live on the streets for two yrs until I was a few months preg bc it was better than home which is where I wound up going anyway. Ive been in and out of shelters since than with my kids just trying to find something stable. I have been in a few scary situations that I def live in fear from. I always wonder if that what I medicate myself for. I have made a first step by getting my son some help with dealing with everything we have been through I have to say that him being happier is making things around the house less stressful. It allowed me to take a few seconds to think about things and try and find someone to talk to.

It is sad and unfortunate that you were born to abusive parents who neglected you! I am sure you have suffered through a tremendous amount of emotional pain from the difficult life you have had up to this point. That is why you need alot of support to help you deal with your pain.

When I was in treatment, I went through some emdr therapy which helped me tremendously! I often think back to that when I am feeling a little down in the dumps, and then I feel much better.

You have had a huge cross to bear but by sharing your story with others like you are doing here, you are allowing others to help you carry that load. That's how support works, because the worse thing you can do is to keep all that stuff inside.

There are all kinds of people willing to help so please don't be afraid to ask.

God Bless!

biking helps me with my emotions and urges to go to pills. if I bike every day, it makes me feel better. maybe things will never be perfect, but they get better.

Hi i was just wandering if the cravings have gotten any easier could i could deff use the help too.

If you get through the first craving, you can get through another - and then another.... Just take it one at a time. Eventually they go away. I know it personally. Stick with a group of people who are going through the same thing. Talk to them a lot. Hang with them. Therein lies your power and victory. You will be okay.