Ok, let me preface this by saying that my husband is a generally good man. He is loving and caring and a total pain in the ass!!!! He went out drinking with his friends today for game day- no big deal, it happens every Saturday.

Today, he drank all day and then decided it was a good idea to drive 50 miles away to a stupid Halloween party!!! Where he and his friends will continue drinking and then drive the 50 miles back home! Meanwhile, my mind just keeps thinking that he's going to be killed in an accident leaving me alone to take care of this, our first baby! I'm a crying angry mess now and figured if I let out some of my frustration here I'd only have common sense left to spew at him when I next get the chance!!

Since I'm carrying the baby, it's always the first thing in my mind and I think of it every time I even walk up stairs too fast. I can't drink, smoke, get in the car without buckling my seatbelt, talk on my cell phone while driving- I'm super careful. Then on top of that I'm stuck worrying that his stupid carelessness will void anything I do to be careful. The man won't even let me touch caffeine cuz it's bad for the baby but he can drive all over the friggen country drunk. WTF!!!!!