Rich, i will keep you in prayer. I feel there is a spiritual war against the heart of man. Keep the faith. I lost my home, 13 year career, my husband and a few family members in 2020. Now I'm working a crap job, living in a worse home and dealing with my mom illnesses. But I still believe things will get better and that the people who tried to destroy me will have to answer during the final judgment. Don't give up. Rest, drink water, meditate and take care of you.

i salute your courage in opening up, richie. it is not an easy topic.

perhaps the greatest miracle of my childhood is that i never lost god during the experience. to the contrary, i feel like she/he/it assigned a special troop of angels, just to help me survive ^it^.

but she/he/it has been quite adamant about trying to get our relationship into a church community. participation helps break isolation. long term membership in a church community hasn't worked well for me yet, but works in progress.

((((Rich))))))
You are not alone, I’m really glad you reached out, it’s brave.
I like what Mel & Arfie wrote too ^

Sending you lots of support, hope & many prayers
Gentlest of hugs <3

Big hug Rich.... I am so glad that you're here and trusting us..... A few years ago I was going through a really rough time and it seemed to me at that time unending...

A talked to a minister and said that I just don't feel God and he said you don't have to feel him... You just have to know that he's there and it helped me.... I hope that it can help you.... Another hug and a blessing.... xo

God is always there, in your heart. When he made you, in His image, He left an impression of Himself on your heart. All you have to do is ask Him to guide you in the right direction. And, read His word often. Faith comes from hearing, hearing the word of God.

Thanks for the advice. I don't know whether the voice in my head is from me, God or the devil to be honest. I am making mistakes daily whatever the advice.

following free advice might be the first mistake, richie. free advice is typically worth half of what you pay for it.

i'm plagued with more than one voice in my head and knowing which voice is god's can, indeed, be quite a challenge. for my senses, i believe god's is the quietest voice in the choir with the least variety in the lyrics. god's guidance is seldom cryptic or poetically flourished.

Some of the best advice I have received in this world has been free. The people we pay are sometimes only out for the money. My ex lawyer conned me.

my bad