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My yearly teaching evaluation meeting with my boss at the community college went well today. It matters because its my last one before I got up for tenure, which is an all or nothing deal. If you dont get tenure you get fired.
It was really good news that today I got high scores from students on my teaching evaluations. Like I said here earlier when I was posting for support re my anxiety before evaluation meetings, Ive got solid grades of B from students about my teaching in all classes. Once in a while Ive even got grades of A on some of my studentsevaluations of my teaching. Im going to be ok next year when I got up for tenure, and my boss said so. So its time for rejoicing.
But theres always a cheap shot in the bunch, and since I have PTSD I have to confess it got to me. Im here because Im a civilian veteran of 6 years of combat. In my classes we watch The Hurt Locker and talk about ways to support veterans, since I am one, albeit not one from uniformed service.
Still, one of my students wrote about me today that "He hates veterans." I know since these evaluations are anonymous some people take the opportunity to take cheap shots. But that student knew about my own past surviving war, so that was a custom made cheap shot.
My boss disregarded it, but a couple of years ago one of the students wrote on his evaluation of my teaching nothing but the words "Fire him. Fire him. Fire him now!" The rest were really good, giving me Bs and As for my work teaching. But it hurt nonetheless, I wont deny it.
Todays claim that I hate veterans does hurt, no matter how much I wish I could say I rose above it and that it doesnt get to me. I need to get over it to write my response to students written comments for my boss by Wednesday, and I will. I always do.
But I still wonder: why do people do that to other peoples careers?
It was really good news that today I got high scores from students on my teaching evaluations. Like I said here earlier when I was posting for support re my anxiety before evaluation meetings, Ive got solid grades of B from students about my teaching in all classes. Once in a while Ive even got grades of A on some of my studentsevaluations of my teaching. Im going to be ok next year when I got up for tenure, and my boss said so. So its time for rejoicing.
But theres always a cheap shot in the bunch, and since I have PTSD I have to confess it got to me. Im here because Im a civilian veteran of 6 years of combat. In my classes we watch The Hurt Locker and talk about ways to support veterans, since I am one, albeit not one from uniformed service.
Still, one of my students wrote about me today that "He hates veterans." I know since these evaluations are anonymous some people take the opportunity to take cheap shots. But that student knew about my own past surviving war, so that was a custom made cheap shot.
My boss disregarded it, but a couple of years ago one of the students wrote on his evaluation of my teaching nothing but the words "Fire him. Fire him. Fire him now!" The rest were really good, giving me Bs and As for my work teaching. But it hurt nonetheless, I wont deny it.
Todays claim that I hate veterans does hurt, no matter how much I wish I could say I rose above it and that it doesnt get to me. I need to get over it to write my response to students written comments for my boss by Wednesday, and I will. I always do.
But I still wonder: why do people do that to other peoples careers?
No, I meant surviving six years of combat.
hope you're feeling better today muji, and i'm hoping everyone has a super-delicious weekend.
Seems like if you were so bad there would be more negative ones. In response to the unwarranted hating veterans comment. If that was true you would not be so helpful to this veteran.
Some days I wonder what happened to good old-fashioned kindness? I will never understand the mindset of people who are deliberately mean or cruel.
Wish I had some wise words to share with you, so it would make sense, but I cannot. Sorry this happened to you!!
Well muji, you do so much here and those that you teach....make some cheese cake . It takes some bitter to do it right.
The few may not have understood or not ready to understand. So instead blamed you to pass off their own lack of understanding.
Use your GPA scale take the total good as the percentage. Then put the other small percentage to "Being human" syndrome.
Hugs today.
Jewells
Now, how does that make you feel? ......We all humans love to feel we are accepted in society otherwise we do have the outcasts who prefer to 'isolate'. Humans are social ... or we should be except for those of us victims of War or domestic abuse,..any abuse screams out to us, 'Back off from'...abusers.Therefore causing so much dys function in the World of us human beings. and cheap shots do bite
Maybe give that bone, muji to Arf(inator) Arfie will take care of it lol.
Sorry Arfie-- I just imagined this as I read your reply. You r so cool You ever help people out dealing with (found meself a trll) :-( :-(
Okay I'm getting off topic. ....back to 'feelign good about ourselves'
Like it was mentioned here, Muji I have taught myself past 5 mos- turning the tables and viewing people completely different as I use to 'learn from' experiences. Also mentioned (I'm teaching myself) -
to look at that person/s and actually pray that they are sick and for that person to get help. I turn it around and 'empathize with' them.
For turning a bad....experience into good. ..........teacher (taught)?
I know, personally (happened a lot in my life) it hurts. It hurts bad.
Always believe that you are in the right (if you are that is) You R are true to yourself. You are one pillar here, Muji holding us up as many more of us here are. You can be proud when you get that a oppurtunity. Take time for when we can feel praise and feel worth because it doesn't happen everyday. I cherish more these days it has been quite the trip. Teaching myself on newer ground - fresh. When my career was going strong, i got many good ((vibes))from my patients. But i found also, there are few bad apples in basket.
tHINK iTS tIME fOR THE Serenity Prayer? ...I say it 3x a day. ;-) Can only change myself; can't change others. -and leave the rest
...........I am sorry i wrote so much, but i feel strongly from my last episode with caregiver. She is definitely not all there, mentally. :) For those wh ar wondering; I fired her. .....now I have a nice one.
It is really a shame that people (living in their bubbles) like you said-
people lost a lot of social skills, Muji., I am glad you pointed that out.
....or ....they never learned much social skills. - (younger generation)
I never learned many social skills child into adulthood. I faked it... ;)
In my home; I was better off hiding whenever I could. nd keep quiet!
......also mentioned; what the hell happened to 'being nice' to others.