Sorry, Rizen, I hear how depressed you are. You're not alone here.

I’m so sorry, I hear your pain too. I’ve been in a pretty bad place myself too, to be honest.
Just please never give up
I hope great things for you in your future mi amigo
Sending you support & a Big hug <3

So sorry you're going through this. I can't imagine watching and caring for your sick mom. You sound like a very strong person, though. Try to do things to take care of yourself, as well, to alleviate your depression, during this time. No matter what, you have this group to lean on. We're here for you. Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.

Caretaking is the hardest job to do. Whether it's for young children or the old...caretaking is harder than it looks, draining, and isolating.

Can you get out? Take a class? Even something totally different like yoga or cake decorating? Painting?

I don't believe ^it^ does get better. What gets better is my own ability to cope with and appreciate life on life's own terms. I only believe. Proof unavailable.

Keep on venting, Rizen. Caretaking is, indeed, a hard job. Sort freely. Sort often.

Vent on, and you speak for my heart. I am taking care of others who are ailing or dying or... and I'll be alone in the end? How did this happen? Why? Unfair, I say, unfair!

Big hugs and puma support. My hubby has as rare lymphoma and his mom nearly died, my jmom nearly dies every few months for a few years now, and I'm just ... Death in Waiting?

I am trying to cope better, but "It"? Yeah, it's a (bleeep).

Big hug for you Rizen…… Caregiving a loved one I believe is probably the hardest thing you will ever do

I took care of my parents 24/7 and it pretty much crushed me for a time.... You lose yourself and your needs no longer exist..... Without respite care I don't know how to get around it

Have to tried any online dating??…. or groups like MeetUp…… In order to get some relief and make connections you'll have to push yourself and I know that it isn't easy..... It might be just what you need though if you're able to do it.....

Big hug and a blessing.....xo

I am sorry this is going on! You may not hear this alot... But thank you for all you do with your family! By the way is sounds, your mom is in very good hands and I am sure you make her very proud, because it looks like she did a good job raising you. Hang in there! Things will get better! I will be praying for you and your Mom.

Rizen - GOD BLESS YOU!!...you are a great person! One who puts the needs in front of their own to take care of the ones they love. You put your life on hold for your love of family, that is a TREMENDOUS gift! Caregivers do NOT get enough credit for the job they do for the family. I am the youngest of 6 and my eldest sister is taking care of my 85 year old mom who is bed ridden. Your post could have come from her, I talk to you every week and she says the same thing you have posted. I tell her how much I love her for doing this for our parents (she did it for my Dad who has past and now my mom). I tell her she is a gift to our family b/c of the love she has shown to my parents. She is run down, lonely and emotional a "shell" of a person. I pray ever day for her and ask the Lord to bless her and ease her loneliness. My siblings take her care for granted, which really pisses me off and does not help my sister any...

To you Rizen, A TRUE HERO...

Thankyou all for the support. I've always felt too broken and depressed to date online. I have aspergers and don't relate to people. I've tried going to meetups and can fake social interaction but never make any friends.