I'm sorry for your pain, I'm not sure I can offer much because the questions you ask and much of what you said I have been experiencing for a long time.

I wish you healing and peace

Very recognizable and exactly what I've been through in my first experience with ptsd. You might need to reach out for help (again). You need it desperately. Good luck to you.

Im really sorry you are feeling all of this right now. Dissociation can be very confusing and painful I know myself I have experience feeling so disconnected and it hurt a lot in a weird way.

Do you have outpatient treatment like therapist and psychiatrist, etc? In my experience anyway, it was my therapist that helped me come back down to earth - though it took a while. Still worth it.

Try to focus on some grounding techniques and mindfulness in the meantime. Focus on the feelings of touching what is around you, and the different scents that are here - like if you want to take baths have a nice scent. That kind of thing..

I really feel for you and I hope you start to feel some relief. Keep talking to us.

Going through it right now.....it sucks

Kat,

Just on a pragmatic level you say you are not home and not an the hospital. What physical location are you staying at right now?

Tell us about your physical environment and that may help you begin to pull yourself back into the present.

Talk to us some more sweetie.

Hugs

I am in my bedroom. From my parent's place. Surrounded by clothing, closets, flower plant, tv, bureau, pictures, bags, etc.

Ok Kat , thanks for focusing.

Now is there anything that needs doing in your room, putting things away or something?

Have you eaten anything healthy today?

Maybe try focusing on caring for your physical self and your room. When I am 'out there' I have found I feel better if I force myself to eat, and make the physical environment more pleasing.

Hugs to you Kat

Good advise letitbe3. Focusing on the here and now can be very helpful. Here is another thing that might help. Close your eyes and touch something like a wood or material. Feel it, is it rough or smooth? Is it soft? Does it have a smell? Really focus on the object and what it is like? This exercise can help ground you in the present.

One last thing, have your meds been adjusted lately? Is it possible you are on either too little or touch much medication right now? If you have a new med is it possible it is not working well for you? If you answer yes to any of the questions on meds, I would suggest you contact your doctor and discuss it with him/her.

Remember, you are in a safe place. Your room is a safe place and everything will come back into focus soon. Until then take care of yourself.

I know what you mean....I almost did not believe you could go thought such emotional pain that your whole body and head hurts..

I went through it for weeks...then IT PASSED...and its like it was a processing or something (looking back)......Like i went through a processing of emotions as if i had gone through a painful part of healing from a body ailment....

It passed although after a couple of weeks...then i felt stronger....Like someone said unless you are heavily medicated healing is painful and its like peeling an onion.

Hi, Kat! I am so sorry you are in such pain!!! You have received some wonderful advice here about grounding and mindfulness, and I hope you will check in with your doctor! I am holding you up and hoping hard for better days for you!!! Hugs, Rosie