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Waking Hyper-Alert

arfie
arfie
A consistent event within my personal dysfunction is waking up with the speed of a gunshot. No yawn. No stretch. Just a shot out of bed in full battle readiness. Another round of this started this week. Ouch. Fast moving thought loops are a consistent element. The subject of the thought loops is typically my current list of stresses. My most natural reaction has always been to begin speaking the thought loops at the same speed at which they come at me. Writing them has been my best remedy to date. Hence my hyper-graphia.

This time around I am wondering if I should treat the subject of the thought loops as irrelevant to the event. They matter within my life, but the hyper awakening feels like a purely physical event.

Am I making sense?
Thoughts?
WalkinBuffaloMan
WalkinBuffaloMan
No matter how much I have worked through and dealt with, I still wake the same.My wife has learned to leave me alone, don't say anything to me when I first wake up. I'm always in battle mode and in a offensive mode. It always takes me a coffee and a few smokes to unwind from waking up. I'm sure you understand that. It sucks since my pain always increases since every muscle is tensed up. I often do relaxation techniques when I first awake, which I find humorous yet sad since I should be relaxed from sleeping. I don't consider this a bad thing though, since if something ever bad happened, I'll be ready,.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
I had a hyper alert night. Woke up every hour on the hour. Boing! Bolt upright. Melatonin, none of the usual anti-insomniacs worked. Spent too much time during the day giving thought to my primary abuser, so the mind-body apparatus was scanning for him all night, even though he lives several states away. That's how that goes. Time to unwind today and allow other distractions in.
arfie
arfie
Back from a creek walk. May be off for a kick box work out next. Maybe a longer hike. No deadlines in my work basket, so I can afford to go with the flow.

Light sensitive that I am, I can't sleep past sunrise, even if I am up all night. One of those hard-wired morning people. I am ALWAYS the first one up in any house I have slept in. When I am at home, I often leave warning notes on my husband's tea pot on the hyper-vigilant mornings.

As I guest, I disappear until a more acceptable hour.
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