You are right, the day is almost here and you will demonstrate all the strength that has brought you to this cross roads.

You can only do your reasonable, simple, level best to accurately answer what you will be asked.

Having been through court proceedings before I learned that not everything is under our control and justice is not always perfect.

But you are also so right when you say that you will not leave humiliated, - no matter what verdict is arrived at. You are standing up for yourself and other victims. You are demonstrating that you will never accept being victimized again. And that is huge, and that is brave, and that is wonderful. And you will always have that moral victory as part of your character for the rest of your life.

My originating perpetrator was not convicted as he should have been, but his public reputation was ruined. At first I was upset about him not being incarcerated. Now I know the most important part was that, despite getting PTSD, I am also a triumphant warrior for doing all I could to expose him. I have changed for the better. I am stronger. And you will be too - you already are.

Kat- you are a strong woman. Know that while the lack of support you may see there is unfathomable, we here send our support.

I hope you do find your "real world" supports there too.

Your strength always shines through in what you write here, even in the hardest times. I have no doubt that whatever you say and whatever words you use, your truth will be well expressed.

Kat, you said it: " This is the start of a new beginning." I know it's hard, and you do stand alone, and it shouldn't be that way. But channel all your energy, all your anger and sorrow, into doing it for that "new beginning" and years from now you'll be glad you did. We're proud of you here, for all you've gone through, all you've learned.

It shouldn't all be put to the test so soon, but that's how it is, and you can still pass this test for your "new beginning." I believe that about you just as you said it, and I just want you to hold on to that truth for yourself, too. We'll be with you in your heart as you stand up for yourself and tell the truth in court, all of us as your witnesses, because we've been through things like that, too. You're not really alone; we're with you and you know it even if others don't see it.

News: case was adjourned til August. Moved. Defense attorney wasn't ready so, waiting these few months. Attorney kept me on the ground. Very pleased. All I could was laugh when told. Not surprised but very frustrating. I am in a lot of pain. Physically and mentally. I don't know what else I can do but wait.

Oh Kat, How frustrating, but laughing was the healthiest response you could have had.

Plus, now that you have geared yourself up for it once, should be easier to understand your feelings and reactions as the August date approaches.

Delay is such a common tactic - especially when they know their client is guilty.

Hugs.

Finding, you are so brave. Everything you said rings true for me, also. I will have to do this that you are doing. I am so proud of you. I am sending you all kinds of calm and knowing. Peace. You got your day in court. Screw those flat mothers who don't see, don't know. You tell your story. You are Right. In the right. Your story must be told and abuser come to trial. I will be holding you in Light and sending good thoughts. Hug.

Argh. To be ready to go and then...another postponement. Can you manage to take some kind of break from this in some way between now and August?

I'm sure you were prepared enough already, so now the preparation would just be to be sane come August. Not let PTSD, an anxiety disorder to begin with, twist you in too many knots between now and then. Let us know how we could help you bide your time.