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This is just a vent. I am feeling a bit raw in the center and crispy around the edges. I have been online too much the past 2 days and I always feel bad when that happens. I am fighting off the pain that is apparent when things go quiet. It vaguely reminds me of my agoraphobic days but this time I am uneasy about disconnecting from the internet and moving my ass out of the chair.
Anyway, onward. What is prompting this post is a FB post made by my cousin that set me off. When we were young adults we were close as sisters. We both have changed but she has become someone I hardly know and honestly if she wasn't family I wouldn't have any exchange with her at all.
This is her post: A picture of a seafood food truck ( like on Food Truck Wars) along with a rant.
" It makes me SICK that this is allowed to set up beside my garden. Why is this creep (that's not him) still allowed to operate a business in town?! "
I asked why? what had he done? I was honestly expecting it to be because he was selling seafood. She is vegan.
It turns out he is a pedophile. Did jail time for raping a young boy. This is what she wrote:
The most disgusting individual I've ever met. And he runs two businesses (one is a damn snow cone truck for kids!) and a seafood festival, and everyone turns their backs like it's okay. AND NOW, he is allowed to set up this f**king truck RIGHT BESIDE my garden - my have, my sanctuary, my place of peace and tranquility. It RUINS the entire experience for me!!!!!!!!!!
I agree...the creep shouldn't be running a snow cone truck and IN NO WAY do I defend him. However, her response pissed me off.
This is the woman who posts easily 20 status updates a day. Some have included complaints that during the winter she has to wait for a treadmill at the gym because some obese people are using them and since they won't be making a committed effort she shouldn't have to wait for them.
She posted a pic of a woman body builder to mock her.
She openly and repeatedly complained of her elderly upstairs neighbors. Apparently one of them used a walker and it was too loud.
She dated a man for a few weeks. He went overseas on business and while he was gone she completely landscaped his yard, posting frequent updates. Apparently he was not pleased because the next post was her angry rant about how he did not appreciate the beautiful intelligent and caring woman that she is and chose to go back to his obese ex wife.
She says she understands what it is like to be disabled because when she was a baby she was pigeon toed and had to wear a brace until she was 3. She is able to run marathons now, thank goodness! To add to her trauma she had a lazy eye until it was fixed when she was about 10. I am sure she was teased in school because of her eye. Kids are idiots and I have no doubt it hurt her.
I don't know but I think her outrage at the pedophile is all about her and not about the potential victims or past victims.
Oh and she has a twitter account now, as well. That's right she can twat...err...I mean tweet all her BS too.
You can pick your nose but you can't pick your family.
Anyway, onward. What is prompting this post is a FB post made by my cousin that set me off. When we were young adults we were close as sisters. We both have changed but she has become someone I hardly know and honestly if she wasn't family I wouldn't have any exchange with her at all.
This is her post: A picture of a seafood food truck ( like on Food Truck Wars) along with a rant.
" It makes me SICK that this is allowed to set up beside my garden. Why is this creep (that's not him) still allowed to operate a business in town?! "
I asked why? what had he done? I was honestly expecting it to be because he was selling seafood. She is vegan.
It turns out he is a pedophile. Did jail time for raping a young boy. This is what she wrote:
The most disgusting individual I've ever met. And he runs two businesses (one is a damn snow cone truck for kids!) and a seafood festival, and everyone turns their backs like it's okay. AND NOW, he is allowed to set up this f**king truck RIGHT BESIDE my garden - my have, my sanctuary, my place of peace and tranquility. It RUINS the entire experience for me!!!!!!!!!!
I agree...the creep shouldn't be running a snow cone truck and IN NO WAY do I defend him. However, her response pissed me off.
This is the woman who posts easily 20 status updates a day. Some have included complaints that during the winter she has to wait for a treadmill at the gym because some obese people are using them and since they won't be making a committed effort she shouldn't have to wait for them.
She posted a pic of a woman body builder to mock her.
She openly and repeatedly complained of her elderly upstairs neighbors. Apparently one of them used a walker and it was too loud.
She dated a man for a few weeks. He went overseas on business and while he was gone she completely landscaped his yard, posting frequent updates. Apparently he was not pleased because the next post was her angry rant about how he did not appreciate the beautiful intelligent and caring woman that she is and chose to go back to his obese ex wife.
She says she understands what it is like to be disabled because when she was a baby she was pigeon toed and had to wear a brace until she was 3. She is able to run marathons now, thank goodness! To add to her trauma she had a lazy eye until it was fixed when she was about 10. I am sure she was teased in school because of her eye. Kids are idiots and I have no doubt it hurt her.
I don't know but I think her outrage at the pedophile is all about her and not about the potential victims or past victims.
Oh and she has a twitter account now, as well. That's right she can twat...err...I mean tweet all her BS too.
You can pick your nose but you can't pick your family.
*Laughs*
Think she's narcissistic much? naaaaahhh....*rolls eyes*.
Wow. And, as hypothesized, the center of the universe is a great big .... hole.... uh... y'know, I'll just leave it there.
My condolences, Cecil. I would like to trim my family tree too at times. I have a cousin who complained at my sister's funeral about how that would take attention away from her own wedding the following day. Errrr..... yeah, ahem.... hmmm.... LOL, she doesn't precisely "tweet" either!
Unfortuanatly for me once I do fall I fall hard, hard, hard. (sorry of topic)
I cant do face book. anymore. It drives me crazy.
Well, and about that I can pick my nose.. can I eat it too?
It is long because things needed to be in context.
Re: eating your boogers. That is totally up to you. You certainly don't need my permission.
The more challenging question is , Why is it that I get so upset?
I get upset because I think she is a shitty human being.
I get upset because we used to be like sisters and though she is always saying how much she loves me and misses me but she has obvious disdain for obese people. It hurts to know people are disgusted by me.
I get upset because I am a human being with human foibles.
I get upset because she is family and I feel I should NOT think she is a self centered twat.
I get upset because I think she is prettier than me, more talented than me, has more friends than me, has more money than me, has a better life than me.
I get upset because I feel raw right now. I am hurting and not sure why. When I feel this way the anger is hot.
I get upset because I am an angry bitch and want to stick a cold calculated knife of wrath inside someone's psyche and try to pick someone I feel that has earned it.
I get upset because that's just how I roll.
Those are just off the top of my head. I hope I answered your question.
When I have chased the bunny down the rabbit hole like I have this week I keep it to myself (as far as FB is concerned) I do let it all hang out here. But yeah....I hate those selfies...constant selfies and attention whoring. Sometimes I worry i attention whore on here. I worry about everything. Meh if I do I shall carry on :-)
But my favorite is...You can pick your friends, you can pick your nose, but you can't pick your friend's nose. I actually stuck my finger up a guys nose once to prove this wrong. LOL. You take care. She sounds a little....twisted. You're okay.
"I get upset because we used to be like sisters and though she is always saying how much she loves me and misses me but she has obvious disdain for obese people. It hurts to know people are disgusted by me.
I get upset because I am a human being with human foibles.
I get upset because she is family and I feel I should NOT think she is a self centered twat.
I get upset because I think she is prettier than me, more talented than me, has more friends than me, has more money than me, has a better life than me.
I get upset because I feel raw right now. I am hurting and not sure why. When I feel this way the anger is hot.
I get upset because I am an angry bitch and want to stick a cold calculated knife of wrath inside someone's psyche and try to pick someone I feel that has earned it. "
Now another question.. will you still love me if I eat boogers?
Seriously, I think I mentioned that the bitterness I used to feel hurt me more than anybody. I have had to 'let go' to move on. You don't have to feel envious of her. You don't have to resent that she is on a different path than you.... different strokes for different folks. You don't have to think that her opinions are infallible.
Reminds me of this guy who resented since he was 6 years old that some people don't like short people. He couldn't get past that.
Millie,, haha.. you picked your friend's nose? Was it good diggings? Any gold up there?
Sorry about your cousin's suck-tion, Cecil, but your rant was well worth it for Leo's comeback and the laugh. True gentle wishes for the raw feelings you're having, though, my friend.