Rizen I don't think you are alone in those worries...My current view is that in four years he will have made his bed, or even in less time. The rest of the world know we are not all in his likeness, there are too many examples to show otherwise.
I also know that caring for one we love that is dying can make us lose ficus of who we are or would be without them. Cancer is serious since losing Husband , mother, friends etc... to it, but being a caregiver only happens because you can care. This is a view you have of yourself that is strong in how you define yourself. Doing it for yourself, caring for yourself is not an easy transition. I know I care for others way easier than I would consider that I was worth the care, but I am. You are.

Experiment with some of the ways given, find new ones not mentioned, you deserve that self attention as much as anyone you give it to.
Hugs and support,
J.

Life and death are in your tongue. Much of what you see in your life you have created through the words that you speak. There is a time to live and a time to die. Many of the thoughts are in your head are not truth. You said, "No one likes me at best they don't care at worst they try to destroy everything I love and have ever worked for." The truth is not everyone knows you, so this thought is lie. There are people who care about you. When those thoughts come whether of suicide or feeling unloved, you need to speak out of your mouth that you will live and not die, suicide is not an option. Confess that you are loved. As long as you are alive there is hope, things can change but if you take your life then all hope is lost and you will spend eternity tormented. As bad as you think your life is there is someone who is far worst than you. Why are you angry and depressed? I know some don't believe in God and don't believe Jesus is real but I would encourage you to turn to Jesus because He paid a high price for all of us. He died so that you can live. He has a purpose and a plan for your life. Not trying to push my faith on you but my Bible tells me that He will never leave you nor forsake you. Think on the good things and try not to focus on the negative.

The only people who accept me also have PTSD. Everyone else is judgemental or thinks I'm weird. I don't have any friends except on here. There are always horrible things happening and people don't like people who have PTSD and other less visible disabilities. Even people who are supposed to help like the police often don't believe it.

Thanks for the support everyone. It helps a lot.

The only people who accept me also have PTSD. Everyone else is judgemental or thinks I'm weird. I don't have any friends except on here. There are always horrible things happening and people don't like people who have PTSD and other less visible disabilities. Even people who are supposed to help like the police often don't believe it.

Thanks for the support everyone. It helps a lot.

The only people who accept me also have PTSD. Everyone else is judgemental or thinks I'm weird. I don't have any friends except on here. There are always horrible things happening and people don't like people who have PTSD and other less visible disabilities. Even people who are supposed to help like the police often don't believe it.

Thanks for the support everyone. It helps a lot.

The dumb site failed to post so I resent it and ended up posting multiple times.

Life and death are in your tongue. Much of what you see in your life you have created through the words that you speak. There is a time to live and a time to die. Many of the thoughts are in your head are not truth. You said, "No one likes me at best they don't care at worst they try to destroy everything I love and have ever worked for." The truth is not everyone knows you, so this thought is lie. There are people who care about you. When those thoughts come whether of suicide or feeling unloved, you need to speak out of your mouth that you will live and not die, suicide is not an option. Confess that you are loved. As long as you are alive there is hope, things can change but if you take your life then all hope is lost and you will spend eternity tormented. As bad as you think your life is there is someone who is far worst than you. Why are you angry and depressed? I know some don't believe in God and don't believe Jesus is real but I would encourage you to turn to Jesus because He paid a high price for all of us. He died so that you can live. He has a purpose and a plan for your life. Not trying to push my faith on you but my Bible tells me that He will never leave you nor forsake you. Think on the good things and try not to focus on the negative.

rizen & everyone. i said it a few times already but it is worth saying again. i just need a little more courage and then i will start a campaign to increase awareness of self harm, ptsd, depression etc . it is not just us after all. people need to be educated. with better informed people, there will be less discrimination of those with mental illness, healing will be more available. those who say they don't will realize that to some degree, they do. sameness brings people together. i hope someday very soon, i can get started.

then people who fear rejection won't be rejected.

Please dont be sad. Hugs to you. PPl just have to die. You cant help that. Look ahead into the future. Things will be right for us. Its no good to feel as you do. I for one realized that. We need to see your smiling face again. Try not to think of past things. Think happy thoughts.