My best friend i found out has a drinking problem. I knew she overindulged but i didnt know she could be dangerous. She tried to stab me. I can handle myself so i just put her down easy. I was surprised i didnt snap and hurt her or worse. Then her daughter came out and she still had scissors, so i placed myself between her and her daughter until her dad got her. I left. I screamed the whole way home, i never scream. Ive tried just to let out emotion. But i did. And i felt so disgusting and overwhelmed i went and jumped in a freezing river at 4 am. I stayed in it for about 30 mins to an hour. It was something i had to do and my loving boyfriend took me no questions asked. And today i feel better. Usually i feel sick after a trigger. But this was different. I didnt turn into a beaten 5 year old. And i ferl relieved a bit