It's rough. Didn't happen to me, but did to multiple friends.

You might get confort from the book The Gift of Fear by Galvin DeBecker.

RAINN also has an 1800 number and I believe that you can get counseling.

https://www.rainn.org/

Call 800.656.4673

Holly, you could check on women's shelters and rape counseling, which is often available free. This was not your fault so scratch that off the list. Mixed messages are sent by society about fight or comply to avoid real danger. Rape is not about sex, it is about power. I think you will find that your thoughts are those of most rape victims, including those who try to fight. If he had a perfect little life, he wouldn't be raping anyone. We're here for you. Calming and comforting hugs.

Hi Holly, Are you in therapy... if not please try and find a therapist who deals with PTSD because that what happens after a traumatic life changing crime as what was done to you... and yes RAINN can be a helpful source to check out... blessings !
MJ

my-jimmy had the same idea as me, Holly. I was raped twice by a pedophile who attacked 4 of us at my elementary school when I was 10. I had a delayed reaction, too, mine hit 2 years later when I was 12. It really helps me even today for me to see a psychiatrist regularly. I see him again tomorrow, in fact.

Holly, I hope you see that you are not alone in this. That's what the DS lifeboats are about. Calming and comforting hugs.

Thank you, sorry for not texting back, life isn’t great at minute but I have booked a doctor appointment for next Friday, hoping work will allowed me a early finish as I’m not coping at the moment. I guess life just isn’t fair sometimes. Thank you for your support. I guess I just feel some alone sometimes.

Good for you for booking that doctor's appointment. It's a hard thing to do to get the time off for such an appointment, at least it was for me. When I asked for the accommodation I needed from my boss at work, I did suffer some backlash from some coworkers. Life's not fair sometimes, that's for sure; they weren't at all. They should be ashamed of themselves, but they're not.

Still, I've kept my doctor's appointments because I asked for the time from work I needed for taking care of myself. Nobody but me is going to do my self care my doctor ordered for me.

I know how alone it can make you feel if you don't have the support at work or elsewhere that you deserve. You're not alone here, though, Holly. Glad you found us, and let us know how this Friday appointment goes for you, ok?

Just a update, I have got a early finish next Friday for the doctors. I really don’t think I can cope much longer feeling like this. Thank you

You're always welcome, holly. It's tough living with this stuff, I know, oh do I ever know. So glad, then, you gave us this update because you've been on my mind. It's great that you have an early finish for the doctors to get the help you deserve. Keep updating, too, ok? My visit with my doc helped me just because he suggested I could take Prazosin by day, too, if needed, and not just at night for my PTSD nightmares.

At the time, I wasn't having day time flashbacks, but I suddenly did yesterday, as I've posted about here in a separate thread. I was so glad he'd made that suggestion when I saw him last week because I did as he said and took Prazosin by day yesterday for the first time.

I'm exhausted now from them, but the flashbacks every hour have stopped now. Let us know what you get from seeing your doctors, ok?