I had horrible experiences with pot as well, it always made me anxious and paranoid. 16 years ago I had a horrific trip with pot and acid that to this day still makes me fear meds of all kinds. Tylenol, Aleve, allergy meds, prescriptions meds.... whatever, I have HUGE anxiety that if I take something I'll go crazy forever. Irrational? yes, but totally real in my messed up little brain.

I'm really glad you brought up this topic. I'm working with my therapist using EMDR and I think I'll address this with her next week. It's one phobia that I can definitely live without. And I also agree with Wistala that PTSD can result from any traumatic experience. Trauma is trauma, period.

Hugs,
Kim :)

Thankyou..tell me how the therapy goes! i feel very disconnected from my body all the time ever since..like im always on alert that something terrible is going to happen..i hate it. anyone feel like that? like their vision changes

Have you ever been diagnosed with PTSD by a therapist or psychiatrist? You CANNOT diagnose yourself. It is more complex than looking at the DSM and matching up the symptoms.

I'm NOT being nasty. Please refrain from posting if you don't want feedback from EVERYONE. This is a PUBLIC board and I'm not here to coddle people.

If you can't afford therapy try contacting your local NAMI, www.nami.org. Click on the "Find Your Local Nami" link and that should get you to the right people. They're amazing at helping you find the right support and even have counselors you can talk to 24/7 on the phone for free, (at least in my state).

Just focus on you and your own recovery, don't let others get you down. Some people just have a lot of negative energy surrounding them because they haven't had the chance to recover from their own traumas. 99.9% of the people here truly care about you and use this site for supporting others, not for making them feel bad or stupid for posting a question. Whether you have true PTSD or not, coming here and asking for help and support is a major accomplishment. Kudos for not holding all this in and thinking you can just deal with it yourself.

thankyou so much kim for everything

Some of the posts here seemed a bit antagonistic to me too. I don't guess that the poster found the input very helpful.

I had a paranoia dissociative experience with my 1st MJ experience. I was newly married age 20. This was back in 1971. I had only seen one joint at age 16. We went to visit my best freind and his new wife. My wife was very experienced with MJ. It was midafternoon we sat in a circle and the joint began being passed. I made it to the 3rd hit and I started to have this unfavorable experience. I began going from room to room looking out the blinds for police. I cannot remember if I or these people helped me to go into a bedroom and put me to bed. The panic attect began to faid and I lost track of time (possibly slept). While I was in there my buddy called his dealer to see if it had been laced. Negative. I was awakened to come to dinner. The lights were on so at least 2 hours had passed. It was spagetty. I had a ravenous appetite and could not stop laughing. You know how all that goes. Everyone was really pissed because I ruined their high. That is the story and now I will tell you what I think. 1st I would be interested at the age you smoked and how old you are now. These problems can be caused by under-lying psychiatric problems (do you have any issues other than the PTSD). It was my case that I did have some mental health. Potency and prolonged use in some people and not in others. Have you ever discussed this with a counselor. Your issues are real. The funny part is I had double hip surgery after being fractured both hips from a grand mal seizuire. That is another story. I was on to many narcotics for the pain. My Nuerologist gave me a Rx called Marinol ( synthetic THC) and also have been approved for New Mexicos Medical MJ program. The Nuerologist wants me to eat it on my food because I cannot inhale due to long use of nicotene ( I have been off nicotene for 14 yrs.) If you want to know more let me know. Peace to you.

I was given drugs pot, mandrax and qualudea at 12 and sexually abused.

One times i was given so many qualudes that i alomost died woke up on life support.

I have PTSD for what was done to me while i was drugged but not for the drugs alone, not even the life support or amost dying.

Sorry can't say i relate, but feeling drugged is horrible.

I do not know what you smoke must haVE BEEN LACED WITH SOMTHING it happens hugs minnie