Hey guys.... It's been like forever since i've been in here.  Not because I have been fine or vice versa.  But because I tend to forget that I can come here and rant sometimes.  How are you all doing?  I know for me it's been stressful, every day is really weird.  I am mostly stuck in my house for the most of the day, everyday.  It is depressing.  Again it has been a while since I have been active on this group, but yeah I am young.  I am 16 and still have struggles.  I have been trying to get a job, but being young and trying to get a job is not easy.  And then with the virus and restictions, it is harder.  Due to my PTSD, I WILL NOT go and even try to go get a job in the town I currently live in.  That's because I am too afraid of seeing more familiar faces, or having a severe panic attack while I am at work.  Or something even worse happening.  I don't know if anyone else has this problem where family members bug you about why you refuse to look for jobs in your own town or really associate with the town where everything went down, even when they know what happened in that town.  Sometimes I really wish I didn't allow this thing to define where I worked or where I went, but I cannot put myself through that.  My mom who has seen me at so much, still sometimes doesn't know when I have just seen somebody familiar because I start acting worse or breathing heavy.  And even now, if I get a job and don't work in that town, I will probably still see familiar faces and that scares me.  I have had flashbacks before and I have had my fair share of panic attacks and have found ways of making them affect me less, but still.  They scare me, and having that happen scares me.  And also that my mom wants to just not tell anyone that I have a disability like PTSD or anxiety or ADHD or anything else when I do interviews or not answer it in the disability part of the applications because they shouldn't know that before hiring you.  Yes, I know they aren't supposed to discriminate against those type of people but still, it happens no matter how much it shouldn't happen.  It is just super annoying.