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The yoyo effect

onlyup
onlyup
A couple days ago I wrote about my daughter and the way she treated me . I went to bed, woke up and decide I am not going to let this get to me. I had a great day yesterday, layed out in the sun,read 25 pages of a book and was able to understand it(yeah) music going. Worked on the yard, went to a PTSD group. I was like yeah!!!!!! Well I woke up this morning feeling glum just want to sleep with no energy. My radio that I need in order to take a shower broke so the shower is scary!!!!!!!!!!! I am trying to get enough strenghth to go in anyway. This yoyo ride sucks and I am tired of it!!!!!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Yeah i hear you.I'll have a couple of god weeks now IMAO.And then all of a sudden wham,bam! out of seemingly nowhere............A lot of times is even the fear that things are going good oh,oh...why?? what's around the corner? not used to accpeting good, good.....

Life has me used to good, bad, bad, bad, good, BAD and worse...............A rollercoaster....Hard to keep the ups steady.Hard to even accept them....

Hope you can keep it again.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Yep, the yo-yo aint no fun.

Today on the way to town I had a major incident. Won't describe it so no one is triggered and no one needs to validate that I had a right to be triggered. It happened and I went into major reaction mode.

What is so hard, is that I can tell I am upset but what I do during the upset doesn't feel like over reacting. I don't realize it until much later and have to deal with all the returned phone calls and the confused and angry reactions of those that I have treated rudely because of it.

To my credit, I didn't let it stop everything in my day. I kept going and didn't yell when I got PTSD anger flares when I so felt justified to have a fit. I wrote the incident down on a piece of paper finally and put it in the basket that I keep at the foot of a cross.

These episodes exhaust me. I do see the PTSD lady on Monday. The incident was real for sure. The possible danger was real...potentially life threatening. Was it connected to all the things that my paranoia wants to connect with it? Probably not. Has it eaten an entire day of my life. Yes, I suffer from PTSD. Now I have a headache. thpppt