Oh, I feel that sigh, Muji. To deal with the effect of my epilepsy med, I need this GI drug, but that makes this happen and.... I adjust my life to stop more in *that*, but the PTSD sure isn't helpful, even when the meds for it don't cause issues.

Life on the roulette wheel, eh? take another spin, see if the house wins again?

Paw-bump.

Prayers, lit candles!

I hope you get a good report too. Fingers crossed. You’ve done so well despite everything and hopefully it continues.

Muji, hope your appointment goes well. I hear you, I have several appointments each week right now, plus home therapy daily. It gets old real fast. Hang in there.

i hear your exhaustion with all this,Muji.

Praying.

Muji , I understand how you feel and having 12-13 medical providers I join you. Its a lot to take and exhausted. That's why I am grateful for covid because I have to take Transportation to all and when most of them wanted tests done. I don't miss it because now I do Telemedicine and I so happier.

But Muji I am praying that you have a good doctor visit.

Paw bump again!

May you be blessed with a good report!

Aqui contigo
I hope your appointment goes okay today
Sending lots of support
Gentlest of hugs <3

Muji I feel the same way as yourself. I am so sick of doctors that its unbelievable and I feel that they are causing my mother to be very depressed and I feel frustrated like nothing. They keep telling her that she will die if she get surgery for her back, they just keep us bad news but when we react on it, they'll tell us that's not what they meant or that we did not understand exactly what they were saying. Its always some excuse they give us; we are at the point that it is hard for us to believe anything a doctor saids. Some of the doctors we had visit had bad manners. When they spoke to us, they used an attitude stern voice. When my mother come home, she would be so depressed. She would repeat how they talked, talk about the stern in their voice and the look on their face.

I take Dilantin too. I seen a neurologist for my siezures. He told me about another medication they give for siezures. He said if I took that medication, I would not have side effects that is harmful and it would control my sciezures better. I told him no because I did not believe it to be true, I did not want to start anything new and have problems with that too, I have enough mess going on in this brain of mine no more.

Hang in there Muji. I remember how difficult it was for me to go to my kidney dr appts. Especially when I was only 23. I was generally the only young person in the waiting room, and the news was usually that my function continued to decline. It got to a point where I dreaded them and would be depressed for days afterwards. But I was also in a lot of denial about my CKD and its progression so I don't think that helped.

I'm hoping you get good news today and that your function continues to remain stable. Wishing you well!

Oh, thank you for giving me SO MUCH support for this kidney doctor's appointment today. Like I said, I had my psychiatrist's appointment last week. Then Friday I started a new semester teaching nurses full time at my community college. Right away I had my computer crash during class when trying to teach via live streaming from home like my college is having me do. Next I did my paid part time weekend job on Sunday, which I almost missed because I was too tired. Sunday night I took a walk to calm down and slipped on the ice and twisted my knee.

Great, right? On to yesterday, Monday: I went back to starting live streaming classes again only this time my technical problem was having no audio. It wasn’t my fault, of course, but my new students don’t know me yet and they don’t know that. So by the time today’s kidney doc appointment came around, I wasn’t just sick of doctors as my thread’s title says. By today, Tuesday, I was kind of sick of everything.

I had a GOOD REPORT, though, so thanks for your prayers, your support, your validation, for sharing your experiences. The drive to the appointment was rough. It was foggy and so icy that I saw two wrecks on the way from cars just spinning out, The ride back was just as bad.

But my time with this doctor was the best chat I’ve had with anyone all of this pandemic year. It wasn’t my usual doctor, which scared me at first. But this new doc Courtney B., was an ANGEL. She took care of business at 9:30am sharp and let me know that my blood work showed I was still ok to avoid kidney dialysis, which was my main worry. Then from 9:30am to ELEVEN (!) we talked about all of the above in the nasty week I’ve had. From talking about the week’s challenges, we went on to chat about my how my retirement to Mexico in July I’ve planned for 5 years is uncertain because of pandemic border closings. I mean, Dr Courtney B just stayed and stayed with me until I realized she’s an even better listener than my psychiatrist I’ve had for 10 years now. I told her so, too, and thanked her a ton.
Getting to vent here first about how I was going into this appointment sick of it all really helped set this up to happen for me, y’all. That’s how DS support really works its magic for me. Thanks for replying to my being fed up so I could just be open about it to this new doctor and give her the chance to be such an angel today.

THANK YOU ALL!!!

Now off to plan some kind of tech failure proof lesson plan to live stream tomorrow morning—another miracle.

Wow Muji what started out crazy turned around awesome. God is so good. Lol, you will do good. I can imagine that you are an amazing teacher face to face or online. Once this virus past you will become a pro on online teaching. What's amazing is your willingness to do it every though its challenging. I applaud you for doing it and not given up. Keep propelling forward. I am proud of you

What wonderful news Muji.... I am so glad that you had a great report from a wonderful doctor

Yay you... This is all of your hard work..... Big squishy hug....xo

Muji, this is great news to start your retirement off. Congrats!

98 days until I retire now. Yeah!