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Called my therapist and told him I needed help desperately.....plead for help. He told me to have a happy holiday and hung up on me.
I'm one of those people who have ALWAYS been there for people when they needed help.....many times strangers.
Now that I need help and asked for it there is nobody there. He promised me he would always be there for me. He was in it for the long run.
I can't let anybody hurt me again. This is it. I'm done. I hurt so bad I can't even explain the pain. Unloved, unwanted. My whole life. I wasn't even allowed to eat meals with the rest of the family. I had to eat in my closet. I didn't have a bed, bedroom growing up. I was so stupid to trust again. No, never again. The pain, the pain, the pain. Never goes away. I'm 59 and have never been hugged. Not by parents,siblings, those I thought were friends but only used me. Not one single hug in my entire life. I've accomplished a great deal in my career.....raised millions upon millions of dollars to build medical centers for excellence which help thousands of people. Raised millions of dollars for scholarships for higher education. Yet I can't get one to help me or even loan me five bucks for a burger. CPTSD ruined me for life. I wonder why I bothered to fight so hard to survive daily torture and gang rapes for 15 years. Every man in my life has emotionally and physically abused me. I attract them like magnets. I'm used and filthy. No place to stay tonight. Watching others laugh, gather and have fun.
Didn't mean to be a doggie downer. Sure someone will have a problem with that too. Nowhere to go or turn. Please don't say social services as they are next to non existant and dangerous places to be here. Rape and sodomy is the norm there.
Gentle Huggs :)
You okay?
I’m here to talk if it will help
We hung out a lot. We played in bands together. Crazy toxic women seemed to zero in on him like a laser beam when we were in clubs. They left me alone. He had crazy relationships and he ended up marrying two that were very toxic. He never pursued women and I told him to be the one doing the selecting. I would politely brush groupies off but mostly they avoided me but were drawn to him. I think they saw an easy mark. The dynamics are more complex than that but I think somehow the sensed he was vulnerable.
I told him this and I am telling you this. You be the one who does the selecting. Make a list of deal breakers and set your standard are. There are a lot of rotten toxic people in this world that like to prey on the vulnerable and sadly they do a lot of damage to a lot of people. You don't need them. You need yourself to be strong for you. There are good people.
You've really never been hugged? Do you have any family? My mother never hugged me but my dad did. My mother was a pretty evil person. She was a malignant narcissist, a drunk, abuser, drama queen and a liar. The only blood family I have is a cousin. My one brother is deceased, He was a very evil guy. My other brother was a scoundrel and a fake Christian and a compulsive gambler. My sister is a late stage alcoholic. My mother was the most cruel to her. My mother guilt tripped everyone.
I am married to a woman who went though a lot of what you have gone through. She's doing well now. We help each other, One thing that helped her from the sexual abuse by her father was that here therapist had her write a letter to he deceased mother asking why she didn't protect her.
Her father was truly mentally ill, He died a horrible death.
Therapists can only do so much and IMO some are a waste of time. You may want to hook up with a Rational Emotive Therapist. They will give you the tools to deal with a lot of the things that are tormenting and it's fast. They can give you a plan.