*can't speak

Yes. In my awake life, I'm largely past that. My sleep is a different story.

Yes, I do. Often. The childhood speech defect which held me mostly mute until I was approaching adolescence even resurfaces so that when I force myself to speak at those times, it comes out in stuttery gibberish. I cannot find the words to describe the brain twists of going through that in languages I am not fully fluent in.

My home's dysfunctional goal was to silence anyone who might dare tell what went on behind closed doors, so feeling tongue tied and twisted was the result of my upbringing there. Being here for me is about learning to put words to my feelings and finding my voice. Seeing that others can talk about silence gives me hope, even though it's sad to know others have gone through the silencing of PTSD. Just breaking the silence to talk about it is a step forward for me.

yes, i feel exactly as you have described. when i believe i may be at a place, ready to reach out, i find that no, yet again, it is too cold, too heavy and now is not that right time.

thank you, your being brave enough to put this into words and then follow through and post it here, has helped me. you are not alone with this, now i know that neither am i.

sad post as I can relate to that, it is like the wind got knocked out of you. Thanks as it made me think and ponder. Also hug to you as I know it is not a nice feeling.

This is exactly how I feel. I wish I knew what to say to you, all I can say is If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here.

exactly how I feel all the time I have schizoaffective disorder which is schizophrenia plus major depression it does that when you have depression and it also happens from post traumatic stress disorder too I feel mine is more like guilt and sadness in my PTSD! I feel sad to see pumpkin my cat die in front of me after a fire we had I wish I could of saved her I feel like I'm to blame! It's terrible I know exactly how you feel! :(

Yes, sometimes the weight of emotions including anxiety/fear can make it difficult to speak. The good thing is that you can see the misconceptions, even though they might seem overwhelming. I hope that you are able to talk to someone (such as a counselor, or someone trained in this area) who can help you sort through the emotions and sadness. I know that talking to someone was helpful for me. God bless.