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Iamlight444
Iamlight444

Hi, I had a sister that was next in line under me and she was found dead at the age of 18 in 1980. She was a victim of homicide and her case was never treated with any priority and practically no investigation was done. Fast forward 40 years and a homicide detective shows up at my door wanting to talk to me as they are pursing this cold case! What a range of emotions I experienced! It was very difficult re-living that whole trauma it took me back to my 19 year old self who was already traumatized from an incest sexual assualt. Just writing to vent in a way I was able to talk with some close friends and really vent all what I was experiencing. I have to give the Glory to God because yesterday before that knock on my door I was so down I was asking God to bring me home to Him because I didn't want to be here anymore. Today He has turned that completely around, there is joy in my heart and hope in my spirit! Just like that! I have been feeling like that since 2 Apr and was frustrated and angry that I couldn't bring myself out of it. It's true; what others meant for evil God meant it for good! 

SimpsonsOK
SimpsonsOK
Lamlight, welcome aboard this DS lifeboat. It is a sharing and caring place. I am glad that your sister's case was finally reopened. Yes, time can be meaningless with PTSD. We can suddenly just be back there. Meanwhile, welcoming hugs.
Iamlight444
Iamlight444
Thank you!
Thor2008
Thor2008
I want to echo what SimpsonsOK said about PTSD. I have been having trouble with my PTSD these past few days. I was right back there. It has been a very difficult few days.

Glad you found DS. This is a very supportive board.
Community LeaderLeo
Leo
Wlecome.

I echo SimpsonsOK. And boy, do things toss me back to my late sister's death... And it was in far different circumstances.

Prayers for your peace, b/c it was years before anyone named my sister's cause of death, and that was bad enough. I cannot imagine your grief and emotional stress.

Healing and peace for you ---- and thank God for reopening that cold case!
Iamlight444
Iamlight444
Yes it is good news...I am still processing the experience and I feel like I don't think it would make a difference 40 years later. Just because we find out who committed that horrible crime against her doesn't make it any less painful...that's for me...others may feel some sort of peace or whatever it is they long to release. I have already released it. Hope that doesn't sound negative I am working on my own boundaries what I will accept and what I won't accept in my spirit.
Iamlight444
Iamlight444
Thank you Leo...
Beryl367
Beryl367
Hi Iamlight, welcome to the group.
Glad they're looking at her case again. And at the same time it sounds healthy that you've moved on after so long. Though no investigation can change the situation.

Hugs of support and prayers for your peace and strength.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Justice for your sister's homicide reopened as a cold case 40 years later? Wow, that IS a miracle, Iamlight444, Could it be because nowadays they have forensics like DNA or some other investigative technology they didn't have back then? Really hope this brings some closure to you and your family.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Welcome Iam……

I am so sorry that you lost your sister in such a horrific way.... Forensics have come so far and I am glad that her case has been reopened

Big hug..... This is a good place to come.....xo
Iamlight444
Iamlight444
A grateful thank you to everyone sending encouragement I am glad I have come to this group I need all the positive vibes I can get as this has been a really trying time for me, before that knock on my door I was at the end and thoughts were so heavy in my head that my there was nothing left for me nothing to look forward to. That knock on my door was God himself to me.! Although that visit brought up all kinds of things I had not thought about in years it was a push to bring me out of the brink of despair! He called for me to get back to His meditating, practicing and studying His Word. I am stronger today when just 3 days ago I had no hope. God is not through with me yet and He has covered me from this attack. I pray for you all that you all are released from any bondage or strongholds over your I pray that we all live healthy quality lives moving forward. Please know that I express myself through what I have known God has done and is doing in my life and just sharing with you what works for me. Peace and Love to all of you will check in soon. with love Iamlight444.
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