I know these people are trying  to avoid me,  But,  why do people with PTSD avoid other people??   Cause I have read that is one of the symptoms of PTSD..........avoidance.    

So, anyway,  I don't know if these people are going to great lengths to avoid us or what,  But, my mother is always commenting on my friend's   photo's  of her family  (i Don't know how I feel  about her anymore)  She never comment's on ours,  Don't really care anymore.  Maybe I'm trying to avoid her,

Because  like 10yrs ago,  she asked me to meet her kids,  I forget what I said,  But, haven't heard anything since,  and when she said on Facebook, 3yrs ago "CAN HE POST" Like she was asking my mother or something,  When all she had to say was: ,  David, I hear You play Guitar, That's great, would You post something?   or something like that........Haven't heard anything since.......But, I did say I was working on something,  And she told me to let her know I never did anything though.  I know I don't have to do anything,   But, she said it like she wanted to me do a favor for her, to  "humor'  her brother, to  make him think he's teaching me the most basic aspects of guitar.,  Now, when I even think about it, I can hear him in my mind yelling and getting mad at me,  All of this because he doesn't have a little brother.

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But, wait.....It get's creepier., His mother And my mother used to go running in a cemetery.......Creepy, I know..........We used to have a house that backed up into a cemetery,  I can remember my mother telling us that,  this guy's mother told my mother to convert.......My guess is so their son would think  that we were all one big family......Also what he doesn't understand is respect:  He figured   "I'm older then You,  You have to respect me, I don't have to respect You"   And the family has always gone along with it,  That tells  me,  This guy has no respect  for himself  (he was never taught)  for his parent's or others.

Also the flashback, seem to come out of nowhere, one minute i'm fine and the next, I can feel him lunge toward me,  Some days.

Some of You have told me about  Pete Wilson is it?    the phsychiologist,  I know I keep procrastinating.  How has his book helped You,  If I can ask?

I'm sorry to go on and on about this,  I know Your probably tired of hearing it    But, this is really bringing me down.