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The stories you repeat make up your personal history and identity.
They include the place and time you were born, the way it was in your family, the things that happened to you, the things you did, the things others did, your first love, and your first betrayal.
It goes on and on—as long as you repeat it.
When you really look at your self-stories, you may discover that they’re repetitive and even arbitrary, depending on your mood.
It’s likely that the details don’t even match up with those in the stories of your parents or closest siblings.
A good question is “Who would you be without your story?”
Seeing yourself without your story is an excellent way to let go of taking things personally (which can be very helpful with shame and inadequacy).
Self-authorship begins very early in life in our responses to our caregivers.
If we are raised in a safe and secure environment in which we feel accepted and validated, we tend to have more self-compassion and less self-criticism (Neff and McGehee 2008).
But if our caregivers are more critical or aggressive or we feel unsafe with them for any reason, we tend to become more self-critical and insecure as we grow older (Gilbert and Proctor 2006).
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Which explains the mysterious fevers and my extra fatigue. I'm so glad I pushed for answers.
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Due to my increased paranoia, anxiety, and a panic attack over the weekend, my psychiatrist has put me back in a full dose of Zyprexa until further notice. Every time I think I'm getting ahead something happens and it's back to square one. I knew he was gonna do this but I can't help feeling disappointed. It is what it is.
I think intuitively that's way I spent the 5 years from 1983-1988 getting a PhD in literature: I secretly knew stories were everything, they were that important. I had left law school to PhD studies in 1983 and everybody thought it was a dumb move. But it wasn't, it was that I didn't just want a degree to get a job, something law school would give me, I wanted to do the job of building a personal history and identity based on a PTSD recovery story.
Yes, it's true what you said: "The stories you repeat make up your personal history and identity." Taking authority over your PTSD recovery comes from taking charge of being the author of your stories rather than letting whoever traumatized you stay in charge. Be your own life's author.
If a child lives with criticism, He learns to condemn.
If a child lives with hostility, He learns to fight.
If a child lives with ridicule, He learns to be shy.
If a child lives with shame, He learns to feel guilty.
If a child lives with tolerance, He learns to be patient.
If a child lives with encouragement, He learns confidence.
If a child lives with praise, He learns to appreciate.
If a child lives with fairness, He learns justice.
If a child lives with security, He learns to have faith.
If a child lives with approval, He learns to like himself.
If a child lives with acceptance and friendship,
He learns to find love in the world.
Dorothy Lew Nolte
Meditating and books have been the anchors of my healing
Dissociation leaving this present moment for the past or future is what powers Ptsd
Those stories
Gain power when we give them attention
Meditations purpose is to let go of thought teasing it in for just being present
It is not easy but very simple
What fires together wires together
This is the basic neuroscience building block
Where we place
Our attention grows
Where we withhold withers and dies
Simple
Even though he passed in 2005... I wish I could rewrite history and of course I know that I can't
I really need to work on meditation.... I would love to not dislike myself or think I'm an awful person
We will never be happy go lucky
Thinking everything will turn out alright
It did not turn out alright for us
I heVe moved in from mist of my childhood trauma but the consequences are enormous
Feeling unworthy unwanted and anxious throughout a whole childhood formed our personality
Decided if we would trust or worry
We have a chisel and hammer
We chisel a little each day
That is the mindset you need
It is the accumulation of daily work that heals us