Oh, I'm sorry, AJ, you've been so brave through so much.

I was on a walker last year, and I know how it feels to use that instead of a cane. I had to do physical therapy all over again 3 times last year to transition from walker to cane. I'd beat the walker and then slip back into it again. It was a real struggle.

So far through half of 2024, though, it's been cane all of the way for me, so I'm praying it can happen for you, too. Sending you support from the heart, my friend.

how pervy am i for viewing prosthetic devices as some of the bestest play pretties, ever? i've thought of getting one of those walkers which have a seat on them for the sake of having someplace to sit while i wait in treacherously long lines. i use a wheelchair as a, "porch patrol chair" to keep up with the big wheel derbies more easily. i kinda wish i could have it outfitted with lights and a siren.

leaving my strictly personal perversions aside. . .

feel better soon, angela.

I've been struggling with depression for a while AJ and it can be really hard at times

I'm sorry that your physio isn't going as you'd hoped..... Big squishy hug..... xo

Prayers of support ongoing, AJ!

Be kind to yourself you will like yourself for it and be happy. Re your depression the best way to deal with it is re its cause, if you are able to eliminate the cause then you eliminate its affect as well, females commonly deal with only the affect it's why more females than males suffer it, I eliminated by dealing with its cause, my sister treats it only with prescription medication, she refuses to deal with its cause, she is her own worst enemy then?

Sending you support again today, AJ.

Thank you all so much for the support, and thank you Muji for sending it daily. It is hard for me to know how to put things into words at times. I have been in bed for two days now due to the severe pain other than for 2 hours today i was able to painfully sit in the recliner.

SunCloud i am so sorry you are dealing with depression as well, It is so miserable! My mom has it as well right now and I am trying to help her the best I can as well. She misses Dad so much and has such horrible nightmares. I fianlly talked her into talking to her shrink about prazosin and she is now on it, the two nights she took it no dreams, today she took a nap and wake up sobbing from such a horrid nightmare. I sat with her long as i could used DBT skills to help her and the breathing techniques helped quite a bit, its hard too when you go from a deep sleepthen wake up that way disordiented! Then my Fiance sat and watched gunsmoke with her, she loves the old westerns. She is sleeping peacefully right now and made sure she had the prazosin. She also started remeron due to its my base med i been on 15 years, othermeds change but that one does not for me because it helps with depression AND PTSD and if we do try taking it away you can tell i still need it and its a safer one. She started it yesterday so this was the second day. Praying it helps, we respond to many of the same meds!

I am waiting for my new genesite testing to come back its been 3 weeks now. My old one was done in 2016 and so is no longer accurate with all the new meds. It also tells you about more types of meds now than it used too.

Arfie, thank you, and its hard being stillconsidered young, well technically turning 40 endof thsi month makes me middle aged now i guess, but everyone around me are still having babies, running after young kids, working careers with college degrees and i am stuck many days either not able to leave the house or like thepast 2 days not ablet o leave bed much at all due to pain. Itshitting me hard. I used to be VERY athletic and i grew up on a farm.I hatenot even being able to cook anything if im hungry. Its just hard on me mentally right now.

Timothy , i beg to differ, i believe what you say are facts about females and depression only treating it with meds and not the cause is false. Iacutally know more men than women that do that. Also i did state the main cause. I have done a TON of thearpy, plus DBT and DBT graduate program etc. Just trying to learn to accept how disabled i amphysically at this point and that is notsomething that happens over night. No hard feelings oranything but what you stated is not actually facts. Actually i do not know of any Drs that i have dealt with or family has thatwill give you depression or anxiety meds if you are not also knowing the cause andworking on it. They always push for thearpy etc. Sometimse especially with PTSD you have to wait formedications to kick in before you cansafely work on the cause of how you feel due tothe tramua being too much to handle.

Muji sorry i posted to you too but it somehow disappeared. I was sayign thank you so much for always being a cheerleader for not just me but to everyone onhere. Iknow you very much understnad the pain and mobility issues more thananyone i know! I just wish i had accomplished ONE of my goals before 40. But i have not, I turn 40 on july 30th and feel like hiding out that day. Mom insists we do something but why both i have met none of my goals?

2 1/2 months until wedding day I am excited about it i am just stressed. I am trying to write my fiance a poem to read at the vowsbut struggling its been so long sincei wrotepoetry

Thanks, AJ, what you say is really sweet. You and folks here face down so much in daily life that my cheerleading just comes from the heart. Especially since, as you know, the struggle day by day is familiar to me in my own experience. I'm sorry your energy has had to go into that struggle to such an extent that your goals have had to go by the wayside until the age of 40. That's truly unfair, and my prayer for you is that ALL of your goals may now be realized in life's second half. You deserve it.

I'm thrilled about your upcoming wedding. I'll bet that poem for your ceremony will come. Your husband to be has really been there for you.

This Too Shall Pass....breathe through it. Talk through it like you are doing. The answers will cilome. Sometimes we need to sit in tbe uncertainty until the right answers come. Give your power over to your higher power and he will guide you. Remember not to focus on the past or the future but be right where you are. Feel your feet on the ground. The answers do not come when we are spinning aboht everything thatv s going on. Being at home all the time also makes that really difficult. Sometimes just a drive to the pharmacy gets me out of my head. Sending love and prayers. <3<÷<3

Sending you support again, AJ. We're with you. You are not alone.

Sending you another hug of peace and support sweetie

Thank you for yours...xo