It's that time of year again when a new semester starts. I teach full time from my hospital chaplaincy years, death and dying classes to nursing students at a community college. It's been rewarding these 7 years I've done it since kidney disease took me off the hospital floor into the classroom, and I'm grateful.
However, my despite effective therapy, meds, and this wonderful support group, with age my PTSD symptoms are becoming more difficult to manage in the workplace. Things like panic attacks and flashbacks at work in front of classes full of students.
I've decided not to beat myself up about it, and to celebrate the fact that I'll make it to early retirement age in 2 years to retire to Mexico. To get there, though, I have to make it through Monday's start of a new semester, and 4 more semester starts after that.
I have that anxiety-filled feeling in my stomach you get on a roller coaster. I'm ready on paper, but not really ready in the pit of my stomach. Not really ready at all, I'll have to fake again to make it.
Still, here goes nothin'.
Anybody else going back to school?
Im feeling worried because on Thursday my mom wants us all to pray togther because my sister is leaving for college soon. Group prayer really is not thing. Also the last time I was involved in a group prayer I was verbally attacked by my mom. Also she told me at the beginning of the week and now I have time to anticipate it. The same thing happened last time and it led up to my mom verbally...
I'am not a good writer so bear with me.I am in Mexico City at the moment. I meet a man from the US also who tells me he is in Mexico City trying to get his child back.He says his wife a Mexican lady took off to Mexico with the child left him with his grandparents and went back to the US alone taking the child's passport with her because she doesn't want the child anymore and that she was hittng...