It's that time of year again when a new semester starts. I teach full time from my hospital chaplaincy years, death and dying classes to nursing students at a community college. It's been rewarding these 7 years I've done it since kidney disease took me off the hospital floor into the classroom, and I'm grateful.
However, my despite effective therapy, meds, and this wonderful support group, with age my PTSD symptoms are becoming more difficult to manage in the workplace. Things like panic attacks and flashbacks at work in front of classes full of students.
I've decided not to beat myself up about it, and to celebrate the fact that I'll make it to early retirement age in 2 years to retire to Mexico. To get there, though, I have to make it through Monday's start of a new semester, and 4 more semester starts after that.
I have that anxiety-filled feeling in my stomach you get on a roller coaster. I'm ready on paper, but not really ready in the pit of my stomach. Not really ready at all, I'll have to fake again to make it.
Still, here goes nothin'.
Anybody else going back to school?
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Just a heads up for the jounalists who are accustomed to my responses on your journals, the notifications are getting to me. Yet again, I am amazed at how fast notifications start looking like spam. It sure is easy for a good idea to turn into an imbalanced extreme.I am going to try waiting a day or so before I respond for the sake of lightening the notification stream.Anybody having any luck at...