Breathing with you, Missy. . . Easy does it, Cap'n. . .
Steady as she blows through the stormy sees.

For what it's worth
I embrace my insomnia as a gift when I am caught up in anticipation anxiety. When the dread event finally arrives, the effects of the sleep deprivation typically have me too exhausted to react hysterically. An all natural sedative.

I will be with you in spirit today,lilmissy.

Your courage inspires me,

love&hugs&prayers.

I will be holding your hand in spirit while your going through this hard time. Don't forget to breath. Let hope be with you.

Scott

It sounds like you have a lot going on right now and you are recovering mentally and physically. I am sorry this happened to you. As you put on foot in front of the other please take time to acknowledge you are doing the hard work. Self-care is important too. Please make sure you take the time to do something just for you everyday. Please also try not to worry in advance. When I found myself working about the future, i would say to myself, “you don’t know that is true”. “You need to wait until it happens and then you can deal with it”. Or “what if nothing bad happens”. Or “you are fortune telling again “These sayings worked for me and I still use them, they were life changing.
I hope your results are all good news but either way you have support here. All the best.

I’m sorry you are going through this. My thoughts are with you as you go to the appointment, and I hope it is as positive an experience as possible. This time of year definitely makes things harder for me, so I’m with you on that. Please keep reaching out.

Puma power purrs. *offers shoulder to lean on*

Fear can be so debilitating. You have seen and felt so much pain in your life. Yes, of course this all triggers you. Wrapping you in special thoughts of love and safety lilmissy.

It is okay to feel afraid, to say your afraid. It is a rational response to the hurt and abuses you and your body have been through. Recognizing that you have suffered and that you don't want to do so again is actually a very healthy , normal defense and response.

Just also remember, that you have been afraid many , many times that you were not hurt or abused, you have shed many tears reliving the fears over and over, and you get through them, back to your kitten, your friends, your songs, all the parts of your life that you find comfort within when the PTSD is quiet.

You are strong even when you feel weak, and when you feel scared. You can be both, afraid and brave at the same time. You can remember the abuse and the pain at the same moment you remember you survived then, and you are alive in the now.

Give yourself permission to feel whatever you need to feel, whenever you need to feel it, but believe in your actual survival rate. Feeling means you are human!

Right now you are 100% survivor of every difficult, painful and scarring moment of the past. 100%. Being 100% means you are an amazing soul. It means you have depths you don't even realize you have, talents you are unaware of, abilities you don't give yourself credit for, the capacity to love that is endless, and the resilience of an eternal compassion.

Triple squishy hugs to comfort your fear and pain, and triple respect and admiration for your perseverance and honesty.

You have tried to help me in what is the worst period of my life. I will pray for you.

I remember last week you said you had an MRI coming, lilmiss. I prayed for you. Hope it went al right. Let us know, ok?

There is strength in numbers. Looks like you have that in spades here. Sending you hugs from Kentucky.

Thank you guys so much for your kindness & support, it really means so much to me. The last couple days all through these appointments I could go on my phone & see the comments you were sending & man did that help.

I wish I could write more but my heads foggy & I just woke up from finally sleeping. but maybe later if it’s okay I might write more about my results & appointments

Big hugs <3

Gentle hug sweetie... I hope that you receive positive news and that it will lift your load.... xo

Congrats for getting through it all, lilmiss. After you get rested, please tell us all about it.