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Panicking for a silly reason

CecilBGreen
CecilBGreen
I made a mistake when I wrote my therapy appointment down. It was today and I thought it was tomorrow. He called my cell while I was driving home and I had it on silent. He left a message asking me to call him back and I did about 20 minutes later (when I discovered the message. Of course I got his voice mail and it has now been an hour and he hasn't called me back.

I make and keep appointments and handle referrals plus meetings and crisis for over 30 people and I have trouble with my own appointments. I feel bad and I get anxious between appointments as it is.

He had time to call me before his next appointment. I don't know...maybe he went out to get dinner or something came up.

I feel stupid on so many levels right now. I mean really...wtf??? I am I addicted to therapy ???

I hope he isn't angry about this. I haven't missed any before. I have came close but always caught the mistake.
CecilBGreen
CecilBGreen
He still hasn't gotten back to me. I broke down and left him another message asking him to call me or email to let me know he got my message because I was anxious. I feel like an idiot. I am at work and my whole body feels electric. I am keeping busy but not sure how much it helps.
donnawanda
donnawanda
You have my sympathy because I know exactly how you feel. I feel your therapist could have been a little more sensitive and gotten back to you sooner about this. Has he forgotten how something like this is going to affect you? You're not like just anyone - you're YOU, with your particular issues, and you deserve to be treated with consideration for that. Tell him I said so!
CecilBGreen
CecilBGreen
He finally called back and we rescheduled for Monday. I feel sooooo much better. he said he was sorry that he caused me to worry.
It was more me causing myself problems. I am not a good phone talker so I didn't elaborate on the feelings I was having.

I guess I can try to learn something about myself from this.

I am embarrassed that I was so anxious and even more embarrassed I told him I was anxious.
donnawanda
donnawanda
All I can say is, you're not alone. That's just the kind of thing I get tied up in terrible knots over, only to find out that all the drama and the ONLY drama was in my own mind. It's horrible to be like this. Hopefully next time you'll remember this time and gain a little perspective on it.
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