I am so, so sorry for the terrible burdens placed upon you. I suppose you know about the website endritualabuse.org? There is also a Facebook page, https://www.facebook.com/RitualAbuseHealing/ and a website https://ritualabuse.us/ . I don't know how helpful any of these might be but it seems important to connect with others who are fighting this. It is beyond horrible for you to carry the guilt of all those people and take responsibility upon yourself. The guilt lies solely with those committing the atrocities. But I can understand you feeling responsible for shining a light on what's happening.

I'm sorry, so very very sorry.

Sounds like a hard decision either way, so big support to you. Also it makes me sad that you and other women don't get the protection they should. Your Biodad probably is very charming so people get caught up in that, plus he has power in that geographical area. Too bad you could not move out of there where perhaps more honest police or lawyer that could help. Of course, I do not know your situation but wish I could help you. Hugs and lots of support

I'm so sorry for what you went through and are currently enduring. As evidence, could you get a DNA sample from your son to prove your biodad is the father and you the mother? Idk how things work over there. It frightens me thinking of you going back. there. I hope you can think that there are more potential options? Protecting your own safety is paramount

I would suggest a DNA sample to prove your biodad is the father of your son too. You may want to try all of the other alternatives you know to uncover this case.

I don't like this idea of you being raped and tortured. Will they not suspect that you came back there for gathering evidence? Do you think they will let you go away with evidence? Will they give you a punishment for not being present last time? It is very risky, especially without help of other people and you being in this state, you may make a mistake and there is a group of people around you who are not on your side.

TW We've had the DNA results and he's mine and Biodad's son. I also had 3 daughters with him. All sacrificed shortly after birth. I was made to name them and bond with them.

He lives on a huge ranch that borders Mexico. He has a lot of illegal immigrants pass through his property. Nobody misses the dozen or so he uses. But I know what's happening. The emotional toll is enormous. I don't think I can make it unless I do something to stop it. The police quite clearly could care less about the illegal immigrants. A dozen fewer to worry about. If you've never lived in a border state you really quite comprehend the problems created and face and just how bad it is.