I wish I had a solution for you Silverlight. I also struggle with PTSD. I always thought it was only for veterans who had been at war. My therapist provided information that really opened my eyes to a wide range of things that can cause a PTSD emotional upheaval. Some PTSD is from Childhood, yes you heard correctly - childhood. It can be a phrase or a smell that takes you back like it is happening now. A trigger can be something you experienced or witnessed. The experience can be a very traumatic emotional issue that becomes a trigger, and you have a heck of a time dealing with it. I'm still waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel. I hope when I see the light it isn't a train headed toward me! Hang in there, just know there are a lot of us out here dealing with the same situation. They have approved medical cannabis in my state, and my therapist actually suggested it to me which blew me away. I purchase a 1 to 1 and it helps bring me down. I was in such bad shape one time the medical cannabis is honestly the only thing that helped calm me. The medications help sometimes, but then things get really bad, that isn't enough! I am in such bad shape with PTST that I have anxiety attacks with it. When I'm hitting the wall the medical cannabis even takes a little while, but it finally helps calm me. My heart goes out to each and every one of us that share this struggle.

gentle empathy, silver. in my own case, the fact that i don't want an adrenaline overdose from things like falling out of airplanes doesn't save me from being an adrenaline junkie. i'm a junkie, not a moron. i sincerely believe that the adrenaline of thrill seeking only pushes me over the top. i didn't ASK to be here in the first place, thank you kindly.

in my own case, by the time i have escalated to where i can't eat any more, i believe i need to detox in order to purge that adrenaline from my system. vigorous physical workouts and lots of water are my most reliable quick fix.

but that is me. . .

steadying support while you find what works for you.

((((Silver)))))
Here with you amiga. I’m not so good with my words today but I just wanted you to know you have my empathy

Gentlest of hugs <3

No cures, but sympathy abounds. My nightmares are more than enough to mean I need nothing else, so... Yeah. PTSD... HUGS

sil, I'm all for having a more peaceful life with less adrenaline rushes in it, too. Sending my support for a peaceful day today, my friend.

Thank you so much, friends.

As of this moment i am feeling quite a bit better, much better than yesterday thanks be to God.

I am always waiting for the other anxious shoe to drop though...self fulfilling prophecy?

We'll see i guess.

So sorry you all understand so well...

in my own case, i attribute that "waiting for the other shoe to drop" to hypervigilance. hypervigilance leads me to act out many a self fulfilling prophecy. LET'S GET ^IT^ OVER WITH, ALREADY! ! !"

i'm equally sorry you understand but grateful we have each other to lean on.

Glad you’re feeling better than yesterday Silverlight.
I say the same when I ever feel better, thank you God!
And I hear you. I have the waiting for the other shoe to drop syndrome. It’s not fun to have.

Arfie, i believe that i am hypervigilant about being hypervigilant.....if that makes an iota of sense....

Marian, thank you for caring.
I am so sorry that you too can relate to this, it is just dreadful isn't it?

hypervigilant about being hypervigilant? ? ?
now that you mention it. . . chew, chew. . .

could that be akin to how i consciously channel my hypervigilance into "perimeter checks?" that would be where i treat my anxiety like an over-sensitive security system and channel the hypervigilance into checking my immediate surroundings for clear and present danger. if i find none, reset the alarm and return to whatever i was doing before the alarm went off.

turns out that the routine perimeter checks were even more tedious than rocking in my worry chair. the channeling was remarkably effective in my own case.

would that qualify as being hypervigilant about hypervigilance?

Indeed, i believe so, Arfie.

Or, IF there is a tiger around the corner i am PREPARED to be afraid.??

Hope you have another more peaceful day, sil. And if there's a tiger around the corner I hope you can scratch it behind the ears and just get it to purr. Knowing how you were with Sam I'll bet you can.

Oh Muji, thank you, how nice of you to say.

May 8th would have been Sam's 15th birthday....

Bless you, Sam, wherever you are.

Sending you a gentle hug of peace and calm sweetie.... xo